Poet mind

Poet mind(to continue) I search the net to find beauty shop service,and it is very near my home,i do planting eyelashes,fake hairdo,beauty face procedures,cosmetic make-up and fingertip colouring,it takes 800more nt dollars,i go back home and show off in itergram to be a model writer,post my photos to this app,but the poet lover complain me that i am over materialism belif,i think maybe i should give him romance letters with perfume on them,what will i write,i figure it out,i should record my diary about us to make him happy. That is what i will do in this novel,i start to open my paper to write,when i am going to sleep last night,i find out my tongue is hurt a little,it must be you who give me turning kiss,which makes me spinning in the wound of tongue,i smile and sinking into sleep,my dear,i make up a story about renting a huge house of three floors,it is buddha giving to me,for i work so hard to do my writing job,i also rent a decorated place to exhibit my new poetry collections about love topic,i write it for you,my love,to let you know that my heart has always connected to you,no matter how i missed you,all i need is to pray to you,and then your soul comes to me suddenly,my dear poet lover,how i wish to givr you a present of expressing my works,to sign my name at that activity and introduce my story to the attending audiences,this dream i hide for so long,i just cant stop thinking about that we are now apart.i am very sad,do you know,my heart break stopped untill i write calligraphy letters to you,my dear,i hope you like it very hrarty.(1) (2)my heart feel for you,my poet,you also write me secret poems to show your love for me,i love them very much,and i try to memorize them in my mind,but i can only think about a few words that i dont understand,i want to realize you,your simple fellow truth,your favour,your favorite deeds,i like to be with your classic interests,that makes me feel so romantic,do you know?my love,when i analyze you in between sentences,i know you are the one who knows me best,you are my angle of my soul,i must return you my thanks to you right away,for i will forget if i dont quickly do it,i might lose your attention,i guess. (3)i wear each and every one dress,to let the hired photographer take my pictures,just to represent myself on the road of literature image,i take it seriously that a writer should not tell lie,not to cheat,or steal other's idea to make self famous,i will despise those who said that they have husbands but unmarried,have sick sisters but cant tell the name,it is a shameful talking to hide sex tendrncy in front of readers,my poet lover did the same,he cant tell his wife's secret,but announcr that he has experience of marriage.another shameful law is more mean,it limit literary writers to have any sex or marriage,it is a lie that he sadly believe in that law,but as time goes by,he write and read to play time,but not kill time,not like those who have a TV set and lost time sinking in video games which is cost high.he told me that he has no money,but he travels a lot,and eat gorgeous every day,i dont trust him,because i have a dream to show off my luxurious interest on acceserys,but he does not,he always dress ordinary and lesury outfit,which stand for his belief in eastern spirits. (4)we have a mata son now being sent to new york home,to hide the danger that if students find out his mother birth him at a postmodern dream,he will get boly atturtude from classmate,so father he sent him to live in buffulo village,whish him become a wonderful youth,but he seems think twice about his future,now i am dreaming about living in the future to br with my family happily,but he brcome a mean father to test if he can get any way to survive without his teaching.i can only be his next mother,because he wont let me know his whole life,his first marriage is ended by argue everyday,his wife turn face like turn book,make him very anxiety, he sent the only son to new york,and i am dreaming someday he will live with me long affection,and give me a peaveful life,his son like mars letters,talented at computer science,he get a blog for his father,and he read society psychological books,he want to go to europrran to study MBA,i wonder if he has very excellent language talent,so i worry about him while his father says that he is not my son,i dont need to treat him well,i am angry about this,i tell him today we three are sepretated,it is so lonely, but i believe he put my dream birth son away,throw the new born baby to the garbage can,i am unhappy but it has gone,i must face the truth,never imaging that his son is my mata son,i wipe away my tears and go on my work,i brlieve any people see my story will know a man dont want a baby from a frmale who has many failure love storys. (5)Silence lover He hides me from my messages Only quest remain in the air He disappear from facebook To escape my trace after him He is a strange mined male With mature means of oppose He find a way to live secretly Wont let fans know about his life He is like a mystery that attract me But now it is in vain only dreaming can reach His maybe attorance toward my wish I hope he listen to me as a good friend But he love quietness much more So i cant disturbing his living Only watch time goes by With my searching plate wasting money Let it be i think and i say to myself One day he will face me my brand new face of beauty (6)peaceful role Today i am a quiet worker Try to email and know friends Every mrssenger is kind and nice When my request occurs The response get me satisfied So many friendship and friendhood I like to have creative discovery Such as people give a report On those literature knowledge That i have never know before This is a teaching lesson for me To find out detail art of good minded I love to be peaceful with this world Where love is all around and working My life is a Festival of pleasure The texture of having enjoy and fun I will be a role of believing faith To get more adventage of survive In the circle of globle village boom (7)Rhyme Give me an easy reason To prepare all my fortune Let it be my tolerate sun Shining like a good none For the noon is coming from The truth of reading fun I remember to sing a song To make the cell phone And i can ring down Magic words of bublegum To wisper sweetness on Trusting His promise fund My mind is like a moon Somehow it rise in pain Of course a night is soon To become next afternoon Day goes by with function Time will be the only tone In the holy of temptation When godness mention (9)The back He does opposite On my seat To sweat Like a rent It is note From boot In the net I walk on wet For more tent In front I want I foot That is not The ant Walk and meet But neat Of meat Is sent Wait Next pot The right Will write To get Final dont (10)Rap sutra My friend read quickly with me The swift sutra long run till the end My father lose a bunch of joss It is a sign of getting much more gold In my mother's spell it is a good luck I watch a before lotus religion begin The ceromony is very dizzy for me All my wish is to get protection From my holy buddha and lotus course For the meaning of respecting sunshine I truely get off all my bad deeds and tendency In the future there will be a smart poem Lead me and guide me toward the unknown To make me not go in the shadow of cherity Buddha is fullfilled by my recommend writing Here is the wind of my shade of thinking But my hair oh my hair will be falling down Because of the monk holding on my doom My lover is a poet with his book next to my pillow Why is he absent in my long runing dream I wait for my parents with patience The answer is closed door in the action by hand (11)Dry switch I like dry kiss more than waterful kiss The cause is no need to swallow Mouth water of my due lover I better like wet tea and cake But who knows when he kiss me With his wonderful tongue skill I simple turning my heart like washing machine Wheelchair, and a mind reading reminder, I want to concentrate and fix on him Afterall i sleep with a coughing sound Murmuring sweet things to his ear The dream is although unseen My memory of his invitation is still As a mother calling that shocks me With a tender but ordering word Please come back to my mind I care about to seeing your true heart If it is still longing for me my dear Between mother and lover Who should i choose to hear The asking quest that both make me Wanting to return to the origionality of youth (12)After Complain As i say long words to him He slowly listening to me I know i complain too much While he hear me buy a white dress To attend a gathering sutra reading I anounce that i dress for white law But my heart think all about him He love white dress most This is my first try to buy white I keep a conscious fate To write a new art novel for him Hope this is not the ending Of our relationship and commitment Because my love fly like a new bird That just begin to learn to start his wings (13)Key words I read from the blackboard A teacher write down key word thinking A pattern of realizing the pc world It is a brain war in the civilization As i read between the lines I understand why everything matters Even ghost,game,genius or girl They are all equal before technology Where there is a meeting within our mind There will be a wish starting to happen That is why nobody refuse pc field In this time of thoughts and philosophy I will hold my way and give a strike To win back all my failure and sadness Because this world is full of lonliness Only my faith of love stand for me (14)Wake up I wake up this dawn With black kiss surround my mouth Dont know why herb remains Those powder i eat for skin care I wonder if he give me lip stick of darkness Should i treat it like a gift or something Like punishment cause i scream To him all my heartbreak last night Should i thank god that morning I get a lot presents of job chance Such as one publishing co. Info book And a series of booking magazine And a contract of writing drama I am so in love of dark and white These chances i wont forget That everyday is a big happiness It is time for me to be gone (15)my life is making stories and plots,to make novel and poem full of daydreaming kind of joy,dramatic is all i need in writing.that is why i dream a lot to have idea of shadow to write,my thought is just so aweful and complicated,that i cant stop falling into the big hole of psychology,i used to read a lot about male mind of three id and mirror theory,i like to discover what is the authority of role that play important in novel center,which makes female miserable, i pick the poetry critics to show my academic idea,in the way of reality and research method,i get a good result in publishing,and it should be thankful for all people who help me through the way of acomplish a book. (16)Wonderful hug He lick my neck sweetly,and hold me from my back,he gives me smooth touch with his banana erect in my bottom,it feels like heaven.he said that i worry that your dream goes without light,i tell him its better calm and dark for my dream,cause nothing happening to be frightened in the future,he stay no light with me,and he make my buying estate dream come true,i thank him a lot,for he let me have a reality to live my life,i can do anything with our dreams webing on the loving affair we have,i am happy if he is happy too,i ask for no more,just have sweet dreams with him,that is all i want,my dear,do you hear me? (17)Flood kiss He kissed me all night,with mouth water full of my lips,he looks hugry for the kiss,i promise him that if he help me publish my book,i will let him kiss me every night,that is the vow i made for him,and he is satisfed too,how nice is that kiss he gives me,i like it very much,and he sink his face deep in my back,moving around the bone and meat,his tenderness makes me feel sensuality of pleasure,because i love him,i make him to become my king,this love is life long,and i would not want to change,but i wish him treat me tender forever,never say lies to me,and i will continue loving him by vow. (18)Beautiful ring I have a yellow stone on my ring,i get it from my love,my truthful husband in china,he watch me give birth to a baby and died,it is a hard birth,i cant make it in my dream,untill i saw him in the road selling stones,i realize this is my one lifetime in china with him.i have told him that i will be back by a transparent ghost around him,to guide him on the road of bearing our kid,he must sell stones to a sculpture talented person to make stone shine like jewelry, so that he can sell by higher price.that means a stone without chanllenge is useless,and worthless. (19)i wanna live in his clean house,to become stepmother of his son,i wish to be a kind educater to him,give him smart suggestions,and ask a huge bed of one hundred thousand to sleep each day with him,i wonder if he see me naked on it,what would he do,the answer is he will be too shy and go to wash clothes, i know he can make magic of his house,just like a mind spell of magician name,it is a long name,but if you read that word in mind,every magic can be shown.i read the name too,i make a wish that he be frank that his room will always open for me,to let me live forever with him,even though to live inside his soul,it is to understand what he think and does. (20)he gives me a japanese room to read sutra and study buddhaism and tea ceremony,i feel so glad but now it changed so fast,everything that ever decorate the room has been stocked in another empty room,it is all stuff that just to blind his mother's eye,because she wont let him get married,so he is very angry to stock all memories in the dust room,only white furniture remains.i read lotus sutra which is no easy matter to maintain the belief,i often get lazy mind not to worship the calligraphic buddha,because i always think i can control every wish i want to do,and by myself i can do it well,without any help if the buddha gives me obstacles or difficulties, i can still make it. (21)His son called me ant,it suprise me,he live in the opposite wall of my table like a phantom,to learn how to paint calligraphic works,the poet lover is also as a ghost that come near me with a smell of dead body,i am so frightened that i should not brlieve the news report,it says my poet lover pull my dream born new baby and through away to the vege cycle can,i remember he said in my dream that he dont know how to deal with the new born baby,while i fainted with sleep,dont see if my baby is a girl or a boy,i am still searching the answer.if my baby become sience fiction baby,that has already exist for 16years,the poet sent him to hide away from the goverment pressure,i think it is very smart,but i am worried about if my son can survive long lonely life,i feel kind of undurable with my heart bleeding for my son,for the reason of unsure reason,he must call me ant but not mom,its alright,let's continue pretenting to show the whole world that even sifi has true affections in this society.i tell poet lover that i wont make him fell frightened about the pressure of government,because i am frightened so much too,we must stay secretly to make people find no clue to hurt our family. (22)we also lie in today afternoon dream,to hide the secret of truth,prof the reality of being nice and kind in our love to son.we both know people are mean to talk gossips about us,so we start to go beyond the plot prople trying to change our happinesd,we are devided in three place but with mind staying together,never let others bolly to torture us all,especially those society speakers talk nonesense on TV,i get angry that they dislike my life style and narrative,i hate them to make me poor and get into their prophets, i know people love to lie a lot fortune about their family to make it come true,but it is not exactly the truth,when you believe it,you run into a foolish well that nobody will hear you,so keep conscious and smart,because people dont have the morality of being honest,if you do,dont tell them your practice,for god will know you most to give you the best quality of happiness. (23)my poet lover tells me that he pay my cell phone bill already,i believe it cause today's phone call rings,and i catch it,this is a bank calling for the quest of loaning a village,i tell him about my financial situation,and he will return me a gmail or phone call,it is my way to fine my income get into my pocket,i dont want poet's money,if he test my love whever i love him or his money,i will promise i would rather earning money by my own,not to depend on him or his huge income of rant several apartments,i decide to be honest to my self,not to live in the shadow of nightmares,i believe in the sunny side of the truth,and i want to practice my ideology of wealthy wish,to make sure my life is successful but not failure. (24)my poet lover gives me a dialogue of the pouring rain,while i tell him it is waterful joy that makes us glad,but should not feel the sadness of rainy day.yesterday i sleep when it rained,i dream about he visit my village,and he walk with me and son in the dream,we look like a healthy family,and i promise to look after his son if he cares about me,i would like to give duty and take adventage at the same time,i know he will make sure if i love his everything including his family. (25)he gives me sm sex while i am being bothered by neighborhood, and just about to sleep in the morning,he tied my two hands,and i try to escape so i fall down the big bed with him together,he makes me remember his name finally and we have fierce sex during this morning dream,because i am sleepless and writing his poem critics,he is unhappy that i am not be with his dream,i tell him i cant fall esleep and i also drink a little coffee,after all i am in the dangerous sex with his anger this morning,it is hard to describe,for i never move and struggle anymore,he sense boring,so he swear never tie me any fever in the furture,i feel so glad and happy,for danger game is come to an end,i get his trust once again,i also get his gift of a can of tea next morning,i sent him my favorit tea ceremony furniture, i know he loves it very much about tea Festival activity,and i wish this year moon festival we can drink the same tea to cerebrate our due love,my heart is all with joyful thoughts, and i believe to give our son a job to design the new york house is a good for him,i also know our son is connected with him by line,i like to know more about this,he share with me all details,and i believe that our son will have a good time in the house of quietness and it is also comfortable for him to study and experience the daily life of no worry and trouble,i know my poet lover is loving our situation with all hearty hope,he wish us live separate to get to know each other more,i understand that he believe in god so well,so i want to fellow him as well,but he want me to trust my buddha,in the name of thanks. (26)i write invisible love prose for him,i try to exist in the texture that no one see that i am going mad with the hidden truth,it is about how my fame influence the poet lover and his son,they are in my mind so much like to fake as my family,but dont know the temptation indeed,i face it every day and night,but the secret is unknown for the readers besides they two important acters,i want to know their past,and who is his real mother,while i try to cook for them,they seem like never taste mother's kitchen cooking for a long time,it must be my fantasy to have magic power to cook for them in long distance places that are seperated,if i am a creater of food,i would not be selfish to let them hungry,but i dont know if they like tradotional or creative food,i can rather cook by my own imagination but always feel lazy to cook,every tome i think about the trash from cutting gradience,i feel the trouble of recycle.but i know life is not eady in the age of high price socoety,buying things become a stuff of luxury, i am not feeling like to do it,all i depend is eating hot pot boiled noodles, it really save gas and cooking fee.i dont waste money but love to save money,we are all out of the same temper,we try to get through harsh days,but by my observations, poet lover seem to be a mean daddy,he never care about how his son is doing in foreign country,and he never want to get advenve with me,i can see that,but since i stop looking after romance from now on,i vow that i would never love others till the ocean runs dry,as i get old,i wont change face for any other romance no more,i completely lose faith toward male,i think they are centralized believers,and poet is a thoughtful person,he wont let me be his partner in reality,for he has experience the life of bearing a kid before he meet me,he wont want second kid any more,and i dont want it either,so i believe being single is free for us three,the first duty is to escape the eye of political judgement,which i am controled by eating sleepy pills,and taking psychological talk with doctor. (27)i still believe poet is training his son to protect himself from pressure of politics,and he must do so to cover his poetry from being destroyed the poetic eternity from ever sonce he write poems,and he must stay famous and justice to keep our relationship normal like normal friendship,for he has no wish to have a notorious wife like me. (28)i tell him that my eye colour is brown,and the story is coming from my grandmother's ancester,one girl falling in love with holand martian,they went to the grass and woods making love,finally the girl get pregnant,so my ancester got the partial blood of holand people.by my guess,it would be tuth,for my grandmother looks like white people in the skin,i am the same too,i can always hide from the heat of the sun,and never be tamed on my skin.so i am a far history hybrid which the story i make up is possible and i am good at western thoughts and knowledge,i am a taiwanese with holand soul,i think,maybe i can use DNA to test if it is real,but i dont know if the test can give me a more posific answer that perhaps many of my ancesters have intercoursed with foreigners,i wanna know. (29)i just dream about to be connected with poet lover,but he wont give me wife name,i dream like crazy,after a long time,i go back to reality,nothing happened but memory remained,i am so independent that no body pay the bill for me,but only me needs to pay for real,i try not to spend too much money,and use bank bill to take over cash payment,it is a pleasure to visit bank so often,and i like the atomosphere of being serviced as a customer who face the bill each time through procedures of hand by hand,this is build on the trust between showing and appearing in the local counter. (30)all the lie he told has been washed away from my brain,it is my stupidity that i believe poet is a person who never tell lies,but it is not in the shadow side part of him to do so,in frank world,he always tell the truth to me,as my best friend,i decide to take this love by subtitude of friendship,no longer to wish a wedding or a ceromony of marriage,i live peacefully everyday with reading his poetry,i feel content and satisfied,i like the ordinary life as a freedom writer once again,and i promise i will never fall in love with anybody in the future,keep quiet is what my mind will do,dont want to cause any trouble again,the topic about my novel has come to an end,i must remain smart to deal my life with happiness,i wish he is the same too,let me be generous and honest,to hope a better self in front of reader's eye,let me express the best of my sentence to show that love can be overcome in the wonderfull mind like heaven,and all people can be torlerate to live over there with all true heart.(end) Poet mind (31)i wrote love diary to him,but not expressed in the press,cause we want to live romantic life in secret that never being found out by fans,even thought my book is not popular,it is to be cherish in this lifr time,i know he decode to practice his vow not ready,but i am not worry,cause now i am like a princess under his protection,i write memory book of love sentence to him just to hold his heart,i love my son,i know he test my mother love toward my son,i want to give,so that on the future i can live a wonderful partner life. (49)every time i think about how he feed milk to his kid,change diaper for him,i arouse a piece of graceful thank to him,my peot lover,he busy on every thing at home,he is a busy poet who use his hardship two hands doing home dutys,i thank him for bring love to son,and i think of his sunshine heart,i feel very like to live together as as a family,and i want to change my writing style,to write family warm plot living with him,i wish he can be my mate in writing,i would change for him,to be a very tender wife,we both are poet,and he want to write more in his career,never willing to help me or teach me rewrite my all works,i think if i want to be a nobel prize winner,my writing must pay hardship to resque my crisis on thriller gener,i want to keep the origional texture in the history,because the romance i wrote is recording male's bad side of charector,and it is a good education to male to change their badness,and also for female readers to prevent male pressure on them.if i write healthy mind in the novel,everyone knows it is wrote for the book market,which everyone can create it as normal logic,but i vow from now on i will discover people's goodness and helping kindness,i want poem not to be sour or blam others insperation,but shine the greatest value that people have in their essence. (50)after i wake up this morning,i realize what he says is a lie,he want to give me erotica dream,but i dream about other things,i should know that heart hurt is due to forget to eat pills,i eat and sleep,after one night in my nonesense dream,i found out he want me to change literature works,is to put pressure on my shoulders,i think why not just put it on,let them show by the origional face to the readers,it is better way to express that all men are selfish,and they are hard to please,too.l know poet is also the kind of male,just he speaks before three times of think,so i try to dig his history of his aweful life with his extra wife,it is very under hell,she turns face like turns the pages,so they usually fight for small qurrals,and never get peaceful life for there is no money,he like to decorate the house with red stuff,but after since mother past away,he start to stay white and clean,can you read his mind from this situation,i think his mother maybe not let him marry,and so he is married with only coexistence of living together,it is a myth that i found no trace about their marriage but only a kid,the other kid she born for the air is losing direction right now,because she is a bad girl and she never goes to school,or has any thing to do,live no where,for she is nothing but a actress on the show of new book exhibition. (51)i tell him,if the ghost kid is disposed,let us feed her to be our kid,and he sign with a long breath,why you do so to making trouble,she wont treat you right after she grow up,she has a selfish mind and never trust in love,i know,but what if people ask about his daughter,how can he say,i am worry about her running in the phantom air,that no body treat her like a real,thats why i want to adopt her,but do you think she will called me dear mother,save that,she doesnt even respect her father,how can she respect me,i know this is a problematic situation,that i am over minded,for he wont worry the ghost daughter a bit,why me worry?just it is sad to see her growing in the air without a birth day,it is so embarrassed to see him being scared by the suddenly showing up daughter,to make him fallen into her tricks of let him wound,hurt,worry,and bother,i want to make a spell before the buddha that she gone with the dust,never bother us this life,for we both not love her as a pearl on the paw. (52)she never flatter me or his father,we both cant get the warmth from her,and she is stubborn that she live in her own way,be living with her mother's new husband,that is the only way we thought to make up the tragedy.because she looks not like anyone's kid,so we all dont know where she is coming from and where she will go to,we put the problem aside,never care,and poet live with my soul every night,he fainted in my body perfume and strange shape,i give him surrealism appeal and nervous touching, and he feel the softness in my soul with gental mind without no vicious ideal and attamp.the full moon makes us happy,and it shines every lover heart,to be the mark of celebration.we sleep all night long,with soul flying in the wind,we both cherrish each other's love,because the several dates we have,we come together as soul mates,and we are parents over night,but how kid come out of the womb safely,we barely have no idea.the secret is that his mother catch up with the son when he is disposed on the street years before,no body knows that she is a big buddhasattva in lotus sutra,in my consciousness, i know that she very earnest to be a grandmom,but the blood is unknown,for we all afriad of sent him to test DNA,we keep ourselves in the mist of family affections,just to enjoy more peaceful life without any changeable result. Poet mind (53)i know poet will finally in the end of the story going to live with his son in new york,never tell me the address and not to carry with me to that house,although so,i still traet him well,i dream about living fairly and sweetly together,share mind and seldom making love,for he is quite old,i must keep pace with him,tonight he have nothing to eat,just some veges in the refrigerator, i cook for him,hope he wont feel hungry with living alone,dont care about daily life,i say thanks with him each time we kiss,we are soft mined person,never fight to each other,only some jealous affection arouse sometimes on my mind,he always goes attend activity he like,i have no smart departure to get there,so we cant have date together,he has a lot of fans in the avtivity,i envy him,love him,care about him,thinking about him,but finally he will abanden me going to american forever live there,i feel sad and heart break,but i must live alone with courage and faith,in this period of love,i smell the fly around my room,i dont want him bevome a fly chacing after my soul,for the ending will cost me lots of tears,i will dry them with peace and curing mind,i know guy like him will test lady like me what i want,after all i am a poor loser woth my face no longer pretty,and i like to be better writer than him,i wont lose my dignity before him,i will be a single for all my life,only dreaming wish fool me that i must to check out clearly,a man like him is a excellent story teller,who cares,i can create more excited storus. (54)i dream a yellow rose feild i walk alone without throwns,i feel love is waving to me,just i dont want to wave goodbye,i hold him tight,no words we have said just to keep quiet conscious to cold down our fight mind,i rather think he is kind to me,but in the dream he always do games with me,i dont want excited love but romance word to word,but he dont keep his double charactor balance,so my nightmare talk the hint of our future,just like horoscopes, i know poet are crazy but he is traditional one,so i want to live with him all my rest of my life,hope he give me as a surprise,i would be very happy. (55)now he disappear in my dream,i cant dream about him,and long night i just travel in the old time of huge monsters flying in the sky,i lost in the forest and a small village,i ask a man how to leave this place,and get back to my home town,he says i need to fly on the huge bird's back and then get where i want to be,i think it is fairy tale,so i completely lost my dream,i stay in the bed without time and space moving on,it is quite strange that i wake up from the nightmare,i get to drink a cup of water,and then i go to the bathroom,i wash my face with less acnes on it,i go to the living room and write down this dream on the facebook,no wonder dreams without poet is so solitude,i really cant live without him,but right now he stop talking to me,just because he tell lies a lot,i dont hear him saying any more,for regret somehow i know,he never come to me any lonely night,and i know that he dont want to take me as i am,cause i am not a beauty under his love,he never loved me in the way i want,that is why i get old,i learn how to forget the dream,cause it is nonesense and representing that i dont love him the same way.but he hold me by my calling,it is a excited bus sexuality dream,this morning he is still sleep,but my murmuring get him awake,so he sink in the dream with me,what a coincidence that he and me loving so much by touching each other's body warm,we keep the dream so long,and never want to let go each other.