詩的論述

詩的論述/吳菀菱的文學理論(詩集)大綱 逍遙/1 噩夢/2 經偈/3 構造/4 派別/5 文字道場/6 心旅/7 獨立/8 玄學/9 快感/10

書寫狂熱(詩集)

書寫狂熱/吳菀菱 (我寫的是哲學小說)1 一個揭曉的諭令 終結在說哲意 心情的舒緩或緊急 寫小說是療癒經 可以又長又短的收納 故事引人遐思 這樣的謎 正是輕哲學 (我想要一個名望)2 名氣可以四通八達 只要有創意 代表意見的聲響 可以傳送玲瓏 所以我要名望來完整 為什麼需求 舉世的暢銷快感 (到處散播)3 我寫詩是到處飄 不求助成集 因為我自由如神通 隨手捻來便是詩 沈默是我假音 其實我詩寫不盡 像伝單一般地散播 (只有你了解我)4 我的一切只有你曉得 那文學的隱藏曠味 行跡中黑色幽默 誏你捧腹大笑 唯有你是我知音 如此懂我的暗示玄機 並且用回信愛我 (智齒憂鬱症)5 失去了智齒之後 我嗚咽地向你求救 為了你的聰慧 我誏它空谷兩個月 然後再為了你 去牙醫那邊填滿 我的智慧不如你高 於是我示弱 向你問色請愛 (了解彼此的虛為)6 我們無作三身的相愛 因為假戲真做 我欣慰你仍念著我 假如有人記錄 我們的對話 那是床頭合的妥協 昨夜我偎依你 多久都不嫌煩累 (潔身的自愛)7 不染污水塵埃的蓮 我垂向你的荷葉 忍受是捶練 我甘願出泥而美妙 花綻放在池中的靜說 法無邊的佛性 因潔身自愛 (我也要學法蘭西文)8 閔南語會像法文 真特別奇玄 我用靈犀向他亂學 私底下竊聽 法國鐵塔的入定 在法蘭酥上 我上飲食課程 (我要寫自創食譜)9 主婦料理的漫畫 還沒暢銷時 我就不再寫了 我有時會分析食材 通常我偏好素食 葷腥不要來熬 為人出版過丼專輯 但我是國際派 (香蕉脆片)10 這種台製食品 竟被外銷 為了支援蕉農 香蕉變貴了 像我對你拜物教 我喜歡吃的零食零嘴 就是你父權的 油炸橫切棍 理論証述/11 我喜歡觀察提問， 我是半路蹦出來的理論家。 我寫論述很主觀， 沒寫完絕不換氣， 我一寫就是三天三夜。 我靠直覺批評詩書， 我信仰新批評之顯學， 不知不覺得罪了作者， 因為我不了解一部作品， 為何不可多方位來看呢？ 小說藝術性要具足， 必須把技巧和編劇來練就， 並且不空洞， 有評論价值。 分析手法是抽絲剝繭， 應用理論， 心理學的學派的利用， 應是批判的基礎。 講的比寫的更快， 我要用錄音機說一段， 用直播報導， 任何一本書的讀後心得。 述說方法/12 他整晚在我嘴中講話， 吸光了我的口水液， 那就是深情默默， 我白天就深思其義， 寫出更棒的文章， 你的眼是話語的金光黨， 手掌撫摸我的側腰， 好性感阿，你稱讚我， 今天你專注聆聽我， 連天使也展翼而微笑， 我說得字字數据化， 你也曉以珠璣， 我好愛你的複數型耳語， 你就是修辭學， 擇辭而言之， 說真或假隨你便， 雙關義不難懂。 語言遊戲/13 我約你去天辺聊心事， 說到好笑的趣味性， 簡直忍悛不住而狂笑， 你和我一樣沒天沒地的忙， 忙著思索正與副面， 我們的局戲就是枕頭話， 你說要用原子筆來學繪畫， 我送你一大堆靈感， 不信別人的繪圖經驗， 只依賴自己推理。 喋喋不休/14 好像機關槍， 快速的寫出文本的愉悅， 這種內心的想像故事情節， 好像是謬斯的庇蔭， 誏我不肯罷手。 文明書店/15 這是我的虛擬書社，只發表我寫的書， 我的文明修養，在字句中展現， 流暢的行文，似乎標幟著永遠， 當季品只能上網看，沒有紙本， 看我倒數如流，如數家珍， 每一本都是我心血，嘔歌的行板， 二十多年來，從不輕易中斷， 寫作出版是我所熱愛，驕縱，傲視， 集結交織我的思想，想法的總合， 風格就是我的文化修養，行為批判， 言不及義是我所否定，不能溝通， 詩，畫，小說，散文，百放爭鳴， 我的修辭和文意，自由自在， 無有拘束，沒有拘泥的文言文， 我思我所想，我愛故我在， 閱讀我，你會得到所有的新智慧， 這間書店，我誏人流連忘返， 而且樂不思蜀，像一場景觀美好， 一幢堅固的文字城堡，文人傾慕， 只准有愛心的，記錄所聽聞， 不許抄襲，任何延伸的虛文章， 我將畢生獻給，文明書店的內涵， 只要你有求知慾，就明白我的思路， 不是一團毛線，而是一條絲巾， 文字創造生活圈，發展的妙趣， 意義屬性，和各類型的文化， 音樂，藝術，文學，哲學，廣告， 凡是你想閱覽的，都會提及， 只是，全是我主觀的觀點， 縱橫思覺旳劍拔弩張，華山論見， 這一次，我邀請書寫快感理論， 來訴說我內心閃動的，石火電花， 你來捧場，把手言歡好嗎？ 關於寫作/16 我心眼充滿血絲 徹夜未眠的趕稿子 每次都被採用 無比光榮的快樂 流暢是靈感來源之處 我知道寫作是一種曝料 挖掘得更深奧機密 會有更多稿費 而敍述文法 十分合乎後現代之混濁 根本是哲學術科語言 為了一字千金 我集中思緒 只為了創造佳文優篇 在歷史的印象中 發現各種細節祕密 寫作文本密集而無間隙 代表了天經地義 如是我聞 就在半百之際 佛要我再重說一回合 關於保守的書寫 把禮儀倫理 敦厚的全盤托出 乳液筆/17 如果我有一支乳液筆 我願寫盡天高地厚 你美療我的身体芳香 這瓶供應氛氳的禮物 好像在我身上寫著你愛我多深 感動的夜裏我以香味迷惑你 而你送我一枚定情金戒 那形狀有如鋼筆金盾 我一揉就碎 但是書寫你是堅強的筆劃 那代表著我願意 喝聲的狂妄/18 那些空白稿紙啊 誏我奮不顧身的投效 攪盡腦汁的書寫 就我所知的供出文章底細 它喝飲我筆下的思考汁液 我毫無保留的批判 每一條思路不會打結 說出世界上最公允的灼見 刺眼的意見法術 原子筆一支接一支 腹水溢盡換來無數稿費 我認為一張張白紙 是最貪婪的文字吸血鬼 我焚了那些筆跡 嗆到一個不行的後悔 因為我從不惜字如金非守財奴 我把稿紙的狂妄拋開 前進筆觸寫的世界 而曠大的網路 還是像抽水機一樣 永無止盡的吸乾我的每一滴心血 白紙黑字/19 凡寫下的就必須永恆 才能黑白互映 成為正字標記 可以增補或攔姍 文飾或改正 編輯的任務是校對 作家則是流利 不許出錯太過強求 白色襯托出無邪的黑字 那力透紙背的勁道 永遠的收藏 意義的城府深沈 像沈香發出雋永的氛圍 一篇文章的行氣 由字跡構成 是乾脆不黏牙的素讀 狂草/20 你風飛空氣中疾疾的狂草 無法整理焦點的篇幅 毛筆揮著略為乾枯的手指 如草原丘陵慕道的雲影 吹斷模糊之間的禮數 不規矩的立陣迎向下一行 更為狂熱而大焰驚心的筆劃 大書法家有御言示眾 徐徐而行的風範只是副歌 主要透紙的感知 還要讀出抽象立言的單字 成為字句經典的原點 你一除草 那斷斷續續的尾巴 就匆忙的躲進 密密麻麻的怪異 教雪白的宣紙也不容許 你評估橫豎的風靡 允文允武/21 文字曼陀羅的章法必究 充滿神話的經唱 一遍又一遍的默禱 那靈感使人文武交織 百般功夫在一筆 集千古萬代之聖潔於一身 千呼萬喚始出功德來 化文氣為太極 聚精會神互輝映 投筆從戎的矯情寫生 武俠功夫了得 給您立個永遠玄關碑 紀念汪洋江湖的潮流洶湧 抬起頭/22 想你一個深夜的白秋 霧色濃的山丘 豪無怨尤 抬起頭 仰望無盡的住留 天上的優秀 沒有盡頭 所求 也只有 綿密的星球 能夠安然旅遊 宇宙中眾光的天球 足以安慰暫留 美好的 溫柔 時光/23 我因為獎賞 而虛度了時光 以為頭髮不會蒼老 其實跟你偕老 是一項妄想 時間它不是網 不能控制到國王 自由自在的玫瑰花 也只有汪洋 才能找到方向 你是那天光 讓我癡迷讓我想 靠近你的欲望 盡情流浪 有夢想 守護在你的兩旁 你不要遺忘 講究/24 斟字酌句的目的 是為了成為金碧輝煌 而不是黑荷無花 畫一盞心曲 見琴賞詞一兩闕 給千古遺恨說聲晚安 講究你滿懷不能直譯的詩 斷層的心思常歡 我只能意會 你書寫狂亂之意象 必有一個中央蘊釀之義 是我期期艾艾的想法 剛好可以碰撞出火花的善良 不想也罷/25 你不想升等也罷 我也不願意工筆畫 為孤獨而含淚 這是修行者的懷抱之襟 總要腊炬成灰 才能享盡功名了得 錦衣夜行不如錦上添花 如此多彩的咬文嚼字 我既喜然而為 卻又不失金口之尊 沈默是最大的人間謊言 印在心中的字/26 得妙法良藥 無病且不老不死 心存虔誠敬意 可找到佛號永在心中的位置 卍字之為延伸 持久念經唱題之為修羅 即南無的百善 永久信仰的心狂奔 諸天善仲是我口罩上的福氣 永遠的七字菩提 是凡夫的救命恩者 我以原子筆描繪揮毫之 即使夢中雨中步行中 也不會忘懷 此經在我心上的投影 法香的忱著 書法狂熱/27 墨寶的堆積是否奏效 愈為輕盈或者沈重 持經者之約束 為齋戒沐浴 不使抄經惹塵埃 我狂命的抄寫 一顆寄寓甚高的虔心 字在筆下化為蓮華 流暢伝唱出更溫暖的和氣 雅致而文明的善書 遂成為一種值錢的藝術品 作家們爭相驚艷 因為比寫書好賺得多 伝染世間的書法狂熱細菌 在念珠的斷線中 執著著風雅的複製 書法書寫於是流行於文壇 曾幾何時的夢想 快要被巨人們各個超越 真是學藝超群的汗顏 快語人心/28 為了多說一些逆耳的話 竟修辭為口吃 我暢談次第一紊亂 只得向內巡視 說給自己一個人聽 雙關語曾是我的最愛耍寶 現在身體和肥豬之間 英文單字跨足台語 成了一則扭曲的笑料 有時書寫可以逼出最終真相 但口誤則會嚼舌根 使得文本尷尬 但小說始自於瘋言瘋語 何必負責去修修臉 狂語既出無恥跟著失效 咀嚼蠟/29 有時也形同嚼蠟 無趣到了上高峰的極點 孤苦伶仃的對話 不如改寫成一部長片 燃燒蠟燭的長度 那無聊會化作一種說話藝術 研究說詞的文賦 每個不善言辭的人們 都可以搜集手機中的對談 成為一篇小說的靈感 而主角可以是忘我的火雞 寫出繽紛/30 我也可能是記錄迷 痴狂的為寫作而不顧形象 不想回家跟失眠的床四目相對 旅遊各種書寫的立體姿勢 從記憶中釀出珍珠 去勇敢冒險 闖出一條思路 只因為繽紛太迷人 駢文太情色 誏人以身相許 不貪看別人的創作 只要能尋獲勝利的閱覽 人生是光明的駒 跑出一本本的走馬燈 字的癮君子/31 措辭，踉蹌和時間賽跑 文字是偽君子 令讀者拼命抽菸蒂 雙雙成為瘋狂的文字癮君子 一眨眼睛，忘情其中 深深被墨水灌醉 浮華在筆走龍蛇中想像 接下來的三心兩意 如何評定一本書的封閉因果 定稿/32 完畢一部作品有多累人 折磨心力的琢雕 神像一般的萬古流芳 各種文字類型 飄散出慧眼識芳語 定稿是一個階段的句點 有待書評來垂吊 是非天秤上的水準 美滿菩提/33 書寫一部情史 把時間管理妥當 慢慢的推磨 打字以外的書寫快感 美滿是豐收的心 佛理滿盈 抄詩寫經只為你 般若安詳 珍惜/34 昨天我又沒聽話， 去浴缸泡澡淨身， 你好生氣， 有潔癖的你， 給我一場情色很久的夢， 激情之後我才懂得， 你的力比多施不出來， 我悶悶的，在夜裏寫伊媚兒給你， 我不要聽到你男性的啜泣聲，我不忍。 風的故鄉/35 你暫住風的故鄉， 我盛情祝福，思念你， 像各種耳邊叨擾和喧囂， 我訴說的愛， 風一樣激狂，浪漫， 我令風格一樹的對話， 留存在彼此的內心深處，烙印。 擊打鍵盤/36 用手機打字 手寫一些情感教學 輪流排列出一首詩文 手唱頌美妙創意 打了鐵失了憶 與書寫結緣 像是一次次南柯之夢 夢土上收獲快語 流利的文法 以及唯心的故事 每個心愛的草體字元 匯成一篇完滿句集 狂語/37 我瘋狂的疾筆 意象充滿文字棋盤 淺見有深壑 洞見隱私 詩中的畫任你想像 書寫狂人 赤裸文學的修飾 驚呼一語 就地震了讀者的腦 字幕/38 拼命得像記者爆料 對照文字與言說 聽翻譯寫乍現靈思 字幕是一座溝通的橋 多少訊息輸入輸出 現實的要命消息 雖然閃的曇花一現 卻有深奧的內幕 書法/39 墨水是定型的液體 毛筆這撣工具 幾乎是乾笑掃把 把字體自我繪出筆跡 不准有脫窗的字列一員 守規格的抄經 是正道蘊蓄 文釆飛翔 佛的文學創作 永恆經典 假如馬路可以寫/40 那是地上標誌 公共符號 但若你缺乏紙 可以想像 馬路是你揮灑不完 一張黑色的長捲宣紙 以金彩書寫路況 安全順暢 用速度寫所有門路 掃街是一種手法 寧願是鑲嵌 行車規則規劃規範 說比寫的不一定快又好 只求為都市立命 不要有悲傷意外的文本 誏標旗飄高尚口號 流通交通這本書 意義/41 看到紙就發作了寫作癮 演講紙上的兵術 長途的文藝路 也有洛陽紙貴的時候 總喜歡筆記胸壑義 搶著記錄流暢的文思 意思是一種玩味 在語言文字的泥淖上爬 像嬰兒室的修行 思想是崇高的山丘 每天都可看日月太極昇華 學習寫哲學細緻心法 為智慧澆上營養 想法必要真學 書寫的義務 文人病/42 一定要咬文嚼字 思索用字遣詞 風尚習成的積極 不斷的意謂詩之為物 文詞斟酌像米粒雕刻 支持言論自由權 對人身攻擊很敏感 挑剔文題的鞭辟入理 筆是文人的筷子 挑起超級的邏輯理論 無竹使人俗之過 從來都是個人修為 尊崇的指標 文字槍/43 他是劈頭的口說文字槍 教學子彈的真理 專心聽也不一定懂 胡說一通的小小兵語言 只有他完全懂 天龍國語的真言宗論 於是用語音輸入長話一篇 省略訓話營的痛苦 說道是用心良苦的差事 他的真槍實彈 不是文字玩具的騙術 福跡/44 福到了的字跡 陪伴我的書案之心旅 愈寫愈幸福 臨陣磨槍的硯墨 成為秘密符號 好書是口福 壞書是口禍 修行福運 唯一的標題是笑口常開 像吃大福中的紅豆泥 鴻運當頭的那桌 幸福彼岸不遠 符/45 一符好藥是佛心 藥到病除 每個詩人都有自己佛經 也是詩之符的創造者 文字結界四通八達 筆出既然成文 如何寫出心中的精華 符合獨照的思惑 浪潮的符合 拼湊熱鬧滾滾的文章 符咒語防止厄運 逢凶化吉 文字吉祥是良禪 主動書寫/46 沒自動書寫這回事 只有主動書寫 或者寫了後忘記 為了教育目的 每次起頭開始寫 都充滿了希望 細心研磨文字經 雕琢內容中的主見 唯有將腦子善用 才不會有冷嘲熱諷 回收的垃圾處理 善書/47 一人一本 寄寓善念之舉 滿佈世間 寫善書的是居士 無作三身 使癒合心靈傷口 治療可憐 但願人手一本 發心大念 慈悲為懷的旨意 伝遞給全世界 一心向善 善即根本大法 救渡眾生 文本快感/48 文之悅這本書 令人想要無止盡的寫 忙碌在文字堆中 疊著考究的創作字體 為了文字書寫的快感 我狂命的創造 文學積木的痕跡 奔跑在稿紙之中 還寫滿本靈感的關鍵字 靈機一動書寫狂熱 文本快感雖然廉价 但每次都充實 期刊/49 就是載不動幾多愁 才誏主編累壞了 編也編不完的續期 每本都新鮮噬寫 拼了命強出頭的發表 不一樣的主題篩選 激勵了大家蠢蠢欲動的筆 智者讀得當仁不誏 期刊的出版與投稿 是評審的把關 不可偷渡 這個人人動筆的年代 書寫有如室內划船 跋山涉水/50 筆下的遊歷風景 是經驗取向的 為了情節攪盡腦汁 文字的大觀園 是對聯的賞心悅目 來到山水吉地 想像力琢磨成河川 山勢是筆走龍蛇 為了詮釋學 費盡口舌和文筆 和文壇一拚 貢獻出建設性的文思 所謂書寫的旨趣 獨樂樂不如眾樂樂 (end)

Face universe

face universe/pollywoo freedom silence, I won`t let you, I feel empty world inside of me, all I need is peace and calm. Dream of sitting on your class, but I don`t know why you only need fantacy, no want real me beside you. I have to face the truth, being alone is a great room to think, I don`t want to die. I try not to miss you, I am not a play girl any more, you don`t know my need. You lie to me, I don`t care, you are not honest and kind, you stole my heart. So bye bye,I live in my shelf of loving myself, I refuse the class on whose store. I learn selfish from you, and every one. You cheat me, I know every student like you, so I give up once being your learner. You like young girl don`t you, I rather keep your lie in the grave, forget you. I swear never read book again, all wordwill change overtime, I believe.(end) You never care about me, just look the strange part of me, I take care of me, that`s fine, I hate you, you are a gay, a big Faker, I think I see you wrongly. Ugly is the penis, nobody want it, I will stay away from people, they are crazy shit. Distance. Long as gap, I don`t mind for the world is worth to curse, every one want money, I have cold war with everyone, who care about lousy architeches. I am afraid of this world, no one has no crime, I want all of you losing face, I live in my own way, I want to be a free will person, I can see everyone is a lie, no any moment is forever, I better learn to face myself to sleep and live well. He is a brainy dynamo, he brain wash his students just want them to brown study by intellectural brain wave, we brandy the scandal as true love, he say that I am a beautiful bandsman, we have no audisom for each other, I am a autodidact but not a autographing writer, he tell me he want to be a AI automaton maker by automation to chase my authorship colony singer, we are never affectless, just like allowance of beneficial buckeye on our connective mind, I cook brown rice with brown sugar for our cat, I browse his baleful bad faith, and he has bagful explain like bail for freedom, I know he is a bantam who ever watch baffle with me, today my bankbook get a banquet of receiving stock money he exchange bankroll for me, banjo I laugh like this, although my two arms axon like awl nailing on me, my azure named and I like to observe the ballyhoo, I use byword like a brakeman, eczema has gone. 戀人絮語的愛情哲學(love philosophy of lovers fragrance discourse)by pollywoo (lovers fragrance discourse) is a book written by Roland barthe, he gather students report to collect a thick thesis about love, it is also a quest to love goddess, it is a group creation book, but it has its depth of thoughts about the progress of romance. this is a disconstructional literature book, it mention about the love in the process of many emotions and struggles. watch drama/ I watched operetta, my brain laugh like inject opiate,rattle snake makes merattlebrain,the desecrate of drama perform a desicate desrter fettle like fetus feud,the fiddle begin like feudal,the acter he galop at full speed,bearish break the ice.motley motto mousse the mottled mound,like sponge baby,spoken streamlet and stray with his strap,he is enterprising and the oracle is a circular opt,opulence the optic with opprobrium words,I drink cognate cognac brandy,he cohere with cohesive coil like cogwheel,coconut coinage is like furrow,I feel fuss as fusionbomb,in futurity the peach fuzz is a insination,fury fusey the fuselage,inshore inset fuzzy love.the actress her is uprightness,a interposition Interpol,she interment and intermission the intern,it cause interjection,Hurrah! In the interim she interdiet intercourse and interchangeable sex among herbalists,there is a herald that carnivore with helpmate be killed by helve knife,I hold my hemstitch hope that they get both heraldry and herbage. shy thinker/ I try to not be so shy, but honestly I just can`t speak on public, because I have lecture forbid, but I can chat a lot with my friends, I tell the secret that in side my mind, and it is so much release of me. I am asked about why not log on facebook recently, I know he is watching me, but I feel tired, don`t want to go facebook so far, I don`t know what I should show to him, to make him happy. last night I dream about him, he hear me cry, so he come to save me by teaching me psychological lessons, I am so happy that he show up in front of me, he shines me like a lighten star. I understand that I am not shy as he, but I am a conservative thinker that I never think out of the box, I am a little odd, after I am cured by the theory he teach, but I wonder if I am rescued by him. because of him, I get lucky on my every thing, I seem like a slot winner that I get eight million by three minute, I am daydreaming that I know both of us need money very much, we have to pray. after pray, we are better communicating on things we thought, we are shy on sexuality, but we aRE not so wanting on that, for we both are middle age, and sex can`t arouse our body pleasure. he read a lot, and I can correct him, for I used to read a lot before, we read the same kind knowledge, and we all know it is masculine theory, so I decide to join a feminist poem writing action. but I don`t hate man, I just hate bad man, bad people who do wrong things makes me hate them, I really want to love those shy thinkers who are kind and generous, I believe that will be thankful. (Calm self) I really quiet down myself for a week, for I get the help of mind curing of a woman, she let me feel the healthy mind everyday, if I feel something wrong, I will do her recipe on my shoulders, and no more noise will come to me, or bother my self thinking, it is really a free charity to me, for I can feel the good part of myself, and get well in each moment I spend, I wish if some on need help, you can tell me, I try to contact the helper with you. face universe/pollywoo i once like a turtle never strach out my communication with the social circle, but i find out why in my mind ghosts are fulling around me, because i cant deal with the mess i write each and everyday, and those who read my writings on the newspaper come to me, they are mad about my feminist theory, somehow i get the insperation from their reactions on me, and i kind of like revenge writing down what they did to me, and it is just like reserch on huminity on ghosts, it was frenzy fun to earn the money from all souls that surounding me and i can tell each of them characters. now i am happy to accept the universe in my peaceful mind, i keep my speed of my mind with the horoscope, and i believe that i finally get ride of me moody fate, i save a bill of money in the bank, for prepare for a need that in my future life i can live happy with this money, the money keep growing as every time i go to the bank near by,i am happy that i become a little wealthy as i hide a wish in the russia doll, "i wanna get rich", isnt it a positive and good wish to everybody`s life! i like to read books, study the mistery of books, i am a writer who love rational thinkings, also i write too many unpublished books that no one want to introdue for me, but i still get reputation in some way of field in writing psycology of women. i get to know psycology of men in my university days, by reading master`s books, i think they missed the hatred of female`s mind in too many ways, such as how suffering all women ever experience like birth, work, family, school, career, and so on, women are motif in this world, if they live in the world of no love, the universe they cant face is blue. in the maze of my reading experience, i like to dig out the taboo of sex knowledge for it is the opposite of buddhism, i want to realize both topic, to show the reality of belif between saint and nasty. some how love is the huge qust between this myth on the cross road, i ask all people show the EQ of love when they face the universe of affactions, to fullfill the dream of daring to love. there maybe danger in the path to wonderland, but i suggest everyone should give a try to feel the reality and fantacy, more imagination can rich the life of chasing love, when friendship comes, it is a kindness that you share your trust to be frank to your friend, even it is a saint soul, you can spoil self by speaking to a supposed object, to say all the thoughts to the muse inside of you, then you will possible to become a very charming writer in your effert to the contribution of the book land. every night before i get to sleep, i will tell myself that a nice dream will show me what to do in front of the waking up next day, i believe analyze the dream by instinct way is to forget the nightmare or sweet dream overnight, to face the universe of my mind in each whole new tomorrow, so i am not afraid of darkness and fear of bad dreams any more, that is just a mirror of reality like a self movie i play inside my closed eyes, i like to share one dream yesterday, as i try to collect a clock of my father, i get arkward struggle at the failure of the falling down of all pieces in the clock, i think maybe it shows that i am wasting time to face the left hours i can still live with my old father, i should do somthing to make him happy, i wish him healthy till live long with my mother, i like this faith duely. i have a proffeser who teaches psyco-analyze of Freud, i just think about if it is suitable for me to accept the mind scan to sickness of patients nowadays, he talks about the precautious and transfer complex, he also tells the destructive truma and remembering of memory, in case history, no scientific function can distingruish the truth of narrative and identification of recollection, myth has its meanng, before finding repetation it is meaningless, it is not obvious then be called myth, patients are lke ponds, they always transfrence to love the doctor, to escape the illness of their fellings of belonging. my professer anounce that women has three type, ideal woman, flower idiot, and dark african. i think i have all of these type symptoms, because i change my self with my changeable writings, so i confess that am not a healthy mind when i speaking theory of feminism and literature. if the body is an earth, then the protection of comforting energy must be the hydrosphere, that covers the curing mind literature in the conclusion of happy ending, psyco-analyze will be the basic theory that apply in the critics of such kind of works. i try to distingrurish serious writing from psyco-analyze function, and i find out this writing gives us a model of not to make psyco mistakes in reality, so many people concern about the human healthy of mind, just like literature reflect the communication and mind activity of the roles, so as us live in the streamline of everyday brain working, if we are ill then how we show that each wrong idea has a turning back shore to return, only by correction and self three qualitys, tention, intention, attention, one can get back to wholely self by easy way. schizo is not a traditional illness in psycology field, it is first named after a phylosofy writer and thinker, who once crying beside a horse, because he has sypathy on that laboring horse; Gothe is being named as schizo patitent too, because he is the pioneer of horror novel, thriller, and fancy literature. schizo patient is standing in the land of huge space and time that the illness cant be traced when he conqur the doctor, and recover from messive thinking. if he can tell every motive reason of his action, then he is more closer to healthy life then ever before. at least Freud didnt conclue schizo in his study, one scholar named Hanna Segal, she is making efferts in curing schizo in Freud time, but her working havent being translate yet, it is quite a pity, as i know some schizo paitents are genius not found in the hospital and society, now this illness is changed into the name of thinking disorder, but some easy mind patients still make crime if they are not cured well. Hanna is teached by Malanie Kline, they study the nacisism of scizo patients, she has one book named "psycoanalyze, literature and war", i beliieve the war means hyteler caused racism and the struggle between psycoanalyze and literature, but i have never read this book, and i try to do my own analyze between these two, to comform my writing in the sphere of psycology which is related to buddhism, i whish myself to meet ideal lover, but no one comes to me, only series of daydreaming that hold my breathe that i feel like dying drowning in the water of sex, i have paranoid of fency sexuality, but now i have cured by nearby clinic doctor, and because of i study psycoanalyze recently with theteaching from professer, i get to know being a normal person sometimes is hard to control. i remember that professer has mentioned about little Hans, Anna, and Dora, this three case historys make me think of my adore to some famous males, and finally get tragedy in the end i live in hospital for a while, this is painful without freedom, i heart is opening after several time of hospital experience, i realize that to be balance and catharsis in mind is never fall in sick love again, so i imagine one day i can be rich from those novels i wrote, but this kind of psyco writing seems only stand for the taboo that lovers dont do, and finally my nagative novels have contribute people to chase love in a blind and dark room, without the light of knowing each other, therefore i think romance is dead fountain. curing literature is very nice for people ever get hurt to read, it heals people`s heart of broken, i feel like getting ride of the tragedy for forgetting every texture of adoring some one, it is not what i really need love, but i write love so i need a male muse, so i think that i was over serious in the drama of my mind, that`s why i get hurt by being rejected by male, love is just a experiment of my writing, no need to take it as a truth or reality, it can be a made up myth or a bad legend, just we cant take it seriously that we want a happy ending, we only can fency or imagine that we get good wedding but in reality we divorce for we are not born to be married, we just need a relationship. last night i am too tired that i sleep long time without eat pills, i think i am getting a deep dream of test that if i can risk my life to protect a trilogy of sex novel, to pass it to a publishment secretly, it is quite strange that why people dont have to read then they know the taboo of sexuality, for it is the original sin i think this is not a saint deed inmy dream, only when the book bing rewrite and being burned that i have no any idea of sadness or regret, i onlly take it normally that the deed is for making babys, not for pleasure life, but all my writings are taking sex as a interest between both sex, i never think about the things will happen to me, cause i am only a narrative teller of fentasy, i couldnt find a positive way to escape from the brain mystery. dream is a kind of existence, for us to rethink to ourselves if we have some reflection crime in the dark dream, we are forced to think over the dream that without any other main role but us, writing is a kind of existence too, just i often take dream as a sorce of imagination, but sometimes i will made up the plots to get my point of view, i know that writing if cant last long in the name of love, then it must be pervent writing for everyone to write, it result the high and low quality mix in the litrature stage together, real literature should care about the problem about peoplewho cant writing, and it is the right of writers to tell the deep reality of every difficulty of people that life is not easy for the complicated mind of people, the humanity is just like a joke, and a history of psycoanalyze. the depression of civililation is all too well, it prevent from rudeness and evilness to happen in the body and mind of female, why is schizo is not rooted from little age, because it is unsuiteable for the one to live in a society of diversity, but his writing is not based on the torture he get from the reality, the lesson from social university is to get adventage from reality, but writers always love to create, out of a idea that makes him joyful, but it may hint a damage to the people`s reality of pure joy.we all know that mind is a history of twisted kind of everyone, no one is always upright, for selfish and self situation, one must concider what the future will be, and try effert to make it as richful as real, no one want to die in blond hell of life, that`s why the brain seems to be the main leader of one`s behavior, talk, think, act, eat, devide, sick, nonesense, it is the controler of one`s deed and karma, so we need to perform like a civilized one in the public and then relax in different way, it is the two sick faces of all fellow people, so no one can escape the duty of self esteem. to make a progress of ones own, one must study hard and read more, but where is the money to get a good book like saints think, it is a question for education to solve, what if a student refuse to read anything, refuse to use brain on abstract thinking, a teacher must give him a motive of reading intention, to think more is not smart, to think right is smart, but in the river of info how one to make judgement on different kind of flatter words, if speaking is just to make communacation and relation free, how to concit that we have prejedy and disbelief on the foreum on television, we all know they are making show effect only, no pne really care about the sufferer in the case history.i really hate to watch hypecratic talk show because it is talking nonesense, no deep thoughts like a schaler or psylosofer really think of the way out, and really i have to say that each people have no solution if they dont change for the better, no one can help them to live like mouse. how to unlock my mind of soundless, i think writing is making trouble, but the money is really tasty that i cant give up the reputation of writing, i like to be a none heteria person, being quiet like a baby, when i cry on the pillow i need a voice to tell me not to waste tears, that`s not the fine way to save crisis of myself, but a spell from buddha really save me, i think i am the lucky one to have a lot of fans following me, so i need to be healthy to justify myself, in order to begin again.writing is a curing way for a isolate heart, i think no matter whatever you write, never think evil to set up for some innocent citizens to be the one you write, fate is not made up, it is a group of your life punishment and the relaiton you make, good or bad is what we choose for, not really a god who watch us each and everyday, we are the observer of ourselves, we are the fater when we talk like a novelist, or write like a novelist, no one can produce a crime for you if you dont jump down the trap. how quick we get through a wound and get out of it, it is just like writing a novel and forget about it, then you are cured for you learn to forgive, if tomorow i am dead, i wont regret for i enlong my life enough by heaven`s pray, i am the final one that believe people are all kind and nice, grace like mother mary, now i dont write evil, and i am not evil all the time, but i know a wrong idea can push you into hell, so mind the heart, never mind if people say something wrong of you, you wont become that way if you hold up your breathe and tell yourself that i am ganna be fine for i never do immoral things, you will be a good liver in your life, a good writer is a fake, not through all practice and training cant make you a AUTHOR, you have to experience the life to tell the truth of logic you admit, for me i totally give up love, but i still write the love i belive, i am angel of my self, schizo analyze is making alternative self, not like psyco analyze it is early close, patriarchic prejedice, and to decode nomality and innormality, it takes texture of serching a mind if it is sick. curing my university is the only way to get healthy, i am glad tonight i have an evoke of dream, taht makes me refresh, i dont need to face the disaster others judge me, i am the master of my mind, i am from now on willing to be a writer of healing. believe in magic, and you can get free of trouble and worry, the shortage of intellecture is not a wickness, the more you read the more you get crazy, dont easily believe in others saying, you have to prove it in your own way, and psyco analyze is the best way, you can see through others mind, and the breaking ice is to defense not to be cheated by others, while religion can let you believe in yourself, to worshiping yourself, when you are all alone, writing a poem collection can be a solo working of mind, and a way to learn to get alone with yourself, writing is facing myuniversity for a long time, to help myself free. wisdom comes from life experiemce, that`s for sure, but reading make us choose both side of wisdom, i like to read horoscope to do the fate of my everyday life, but i feel a little objection that i dont like to read the knowledge nowadays, for thirty years of reading experience, i know some people writing for twisting my viewpoint i find out from the very first origional books, like game theory it is a methamtic theory on unsolved exact, but now some writers apply it on company and life reaction principles, i have to judge it, because it is not the way they say, in postmodern days, people are telling lies that they dont know, fact is a jail that you cant get into, love song is killing you that you dont get it, we love to hear good lyrics but not trust it, we are struggling between the fashion and postfasion, if i say i dont believe in fashion, then i can be a frank writing worker. the hospital give me drugs to kill me, i run to the street clinic to search for help, and i find that i never a problem of this society, just the government treat me as a problem, set me up in the id of blue patient, all my life i running in the way of subnormal name, just because i am not feeling like to tell the truth, if i make up a wish of buying things, i think it is trash thought, i live in the space of trash free, i dont like to make junk of thoughts, but the televsion force us to. what can we do, not to see the media going mad, it is because the mouth is free for alter wrong idea to make money so people rush to dare say wrong ideas on the screen, what a shame for them to say slogens. writing is a big engirneer, if you do it little by little, you make it huge finally, your voice is loud, in the every word you say, i am a reporter of my mind, any reader can see that some times i am not serious and hurmor, and people dont like me this way, they like me to appeal the truth of human`s weakness, and the destiney of my story, why people dont like to hear the brave of saving poors, it is a myth to tell right from wrong, but i can easily find the answers. if the answer is changeable, it must be popular for people to believe, for they just like fresh new staff, they forbid the universe truth that life is boring, so we wrieters become entertainment producer, why dont they at first study the trancedence of tragedy, but study the bitrth of tragedy i ask them face their universe first, in order to prevent the mind from broken.in such alien world, people are sinking in thier own interest, and favor of loving, but they cant escape from working to make money, in the capitalism rules, no money means poor, rich is bad for growig of mind, if money can buy wisdom, why still people so foolish, to kill time, to tell lie, to spend show life in the day of the falling psyco analyze, people can do anything they want by money, they cant buy healthy, because the body is your universe, if you dont take care of it, you will go crazy or insane, by the bothering of outsider, the peaceful mind is to kill the fakeness of this world, to obtain the self satified spiritural energy and wealth. depending on others is a bad attitude, doing your own thing, dont be insonia in healthy life, the world always has a trend to cheat you, and remember writing can be a way to cheat others too, so it is like a compitition of lie racing, tell a lie seems no big deal, but in business field, lie will make you stunble.curing writing seems follish, its logic is childish, but the evil world wont stop for that kind of story, so i support religion writing better, it may be good healing to the humanity of broken heart. i think reading can be a interfere force in the people who are sick or unperfect minded, because they will learn the crime thriller writer`s book, to make the same crime, it is dangerous influence. news has no soul, it reports the bad and ugly side of the society, but if we take it as a lesson, we might live good in the shelter of mora;ity, no body will harm us for we walk together with the path of universe, all horoscope has its rules, under the order of news, something we can do is pray, for the karma of the world to reduce and welcome peace to come. the starship is loading our sense and mind, into a never stop road on air, in the darkness, our vision of subconscious is so very fuzzy, that we dont understand how to escape from darkness to the bright light we finding for, searching for, even dreaming of it, the universe is shined by the sun, the center of our milky way, to follow the universe is to get up with the space of the world, so that you will get healthy and happy that you will do your things well, no any other obstacles can stop you, when we writing, we feel the same way too, insperation never end. if every one is a planet, then psyco analyze is the universe, it precise the paitent`s situation, to open his tie in his heart, it is a healing of mental science that better then read mind curing, the later is often using when writing a narritive text, but not a ill book or case history, as we learn the hole science of chinese medicine curing, we know every line of our body is connected, so we can heal the part of hurting by message the hole, i try to find out my silence of sleep by opening the light, and i try to message my solar hole when i get headache, it really works, so as writing, if curing is not good enough topic, then why not write about feelings you hidden inside. curing writing is to report what make you suffer, honestly tell in the diary that who influnce you, and who bolly you, the process of experience if too painful, you do not want to recall, then you can tell some one in the clinic doctoring room, that you dont want to suffer any more, to become healthy is possible for you in the future, if you use the right method to cure yourself, you can be like me that happy and peaceful everyday, reading the small book of curing tips, i really get a lot of profit that i want to share with those who are not happy, and to cure them by the rules i read. first of all, i want to share my history of mess image come from ghosts, thay force me to have sex, i have no way to escape, so i go abroad to find adventure of sexuality, and seven days i get back to my home, they still trouble around me, i am in the hell of soul sufferig endless sexuality with ghosts, but somehow it is more pleasure then real sex, i endure until i am forty more, i find a good friend he judge me that i am wrongly doing pronogrophy, so i have self rethink over and over again, i finally get a curing help from a place where is free to cure people, i listen to her words and cure the way she said, then i buy some rings to keep bad people away, i am totally cured, my world is so calm that no sound or image bother me, untill today i can happy doing what i want. library collect/pollywoo my teacher has a special taste that he loves to collect standard books, which is good quality in the content, every book that he buy is so full of philosophy depth, and I really love the heart that chasing after the truth and never rest and stop, he pursuit the consumption of books which all kinds of language he can understand, is all what he really realize not just show off. he once announced that he want to donate his all collections to the library, I wonder why he buy and send the blood of his treasure but not build a library of his own, but I can't figure out, I think maybe he is out of selfishless goal for all people can study and read what he try hard to collect.