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with romance/by pollywoo Love is full of thanks and hope, looks forward to of which a love of people is not waste time of things, I know his business and area is program prepared and Internet of research, he is only moved my heart of people, because love is like lasting of so long time repeat of songs, and I believe, love is good, even it is just a dream but it will continues, until I from section in the woke up, I in a advertising company served as copywriter, lecture in the sat in me is next to him, I met him, and he asked me on some comments and views, We exchange ideas in English, his dialogue is so fluently so I can hardly breathe. I had a dream that I and he double hold tumble in grassland Shang, he asked me such of stress love I like did? I think seems two only cat in fight, soon live of battling, I woke up and forget he can't, it seems experience has once real of erotic of degrees, my heart has been heard him of discourse said with love , he will go with me of dream connected, I such guesses, is found not to a answers, I see the Japanese cartoon, listen to learn popular Japanese, and test he can knows, results he with I of subconscious also can said Shang several sentence, is interesting I believe he is a linguistic genius, I very much appreciate his level of knowledge. Later, he with I came to he of bedroom, full of white very Jane of style, I think he is heroic, and will be my body upside down placed, I conjecture, he is in to me show his most private of site, said I have is he by finds of people children has, I very joy, also is worries, why all like is new to had of samsara, I only just from he of tyranny hand in escape out, again return its arms, my fate has, this is sansheng causes Suo Mingding of, I must is born for him and live in, I needed to do everything he can to be happy, not only cannot grow old with, was halfway through his divorce, woman who became a widow. Not known why, he on I said "you was is belonging to I of", this a sentence evoke has I of three world memory, I has is a between mansion of hostess, on because husband he suspected son was born is I of lover, feelings too good, and large raw vinegar, then on threat to put we mother two kicked out, I weeping uncontrollably, knelt with please he not mess suspected, but temperament staunch of he, has been with envy meaning, also said too pain children yihou not talent, I had to said this is we love of Crystal, so I only special pain he, If someone I didn't hurt it! he it will quell the anger, but I don't have to get away from the family. this Life he and I not marriage not married, into has not letter marriage and in private Department common operating love of pair soul, I have silly, is he along appease lie have of, we had with mix of days, fairy a class rambles, always in world of corner tryst, until love do has, I only returned to Temple, pray this copies feelings to often phase snuggled, I go has a ring, returned to he of hands, this originally is love of truth, edge of essence, I figured out has, only thought life single, to accompanied he of lovestruck, I feel the feeling of life and understanding of the ever-increasing, moved into a baby, newborn, continued fate of eternal life. difficulty the opposite/pollywoo when i learn the french language from tom,i get a feeling that i can read his novel and him the self,it is a way to compare with his kife before we meet,i have a different life differ from him,i like to mention those things of memory just to find sweet topics, but obeivously he hate it,so i start to interview with those persons in the story discribe upon,and i get to know he is a low-profile writer,never want to show up on the screen,he will sent back all the request others ask him to attend, and i am a progressive journalist for a long time,i understand how to ask perfact and questions,i like to take away all schaler point of view,only report the truth.but now i am going to join the long novel race,compete with others just to see if i can make it,and write down all the desire i want from him,not money but something to be inspured,from body to soul,i need to be influenced on the step of writing duty today is thanks giving day and my birthday too,execpt some comercial institute sent me some small discount,present,and some greetings,only my mother and godmom give me some words speaking on the line,tom sent one monca caffee cake to me,a loving cubic cake,which cost 50 dollars with two numbers on it,that is 4and 0, yes now i am now,but not so mature as tom,he tell me his next book the content will be about a difficult of a lady who is single mother and she likes to use credit card by smart method,at the same time she sells dresses on the web site,it is ironic story that her daughter is only 12 years old,she never take her to trip but left her to the babysiter,and then she grow up like a rent hous holder of many estates in china,and her mother is keeping the eyesight on her buying & selling,i heard he says this tale with peaceful discourse,but i do not agree with him,cause there is no any man in this,and i believe there must be a hint foreshadowing later developments in a story,and i convince him add some male in side the texture,and he promise me he would do that for sure. i got it,he is writing about me and my life in the world,i am a fashion lover,and any thing i want i will earn much money by wisdom to buy it,i seldom ask man or friend buy for me,thats why i never become a weak woman on the career,i just like to make my property more acheivemently defined as i myself buy it,i am indepent not relay on others sending,i like the feeling of congur those fighting materials.but after i feel tired of desire so much,i start to memorize each and every thing i buy, i with some kind of opportunity to get them,i want to write a report for it,and some is out of fake brand but i still like them,i will regrete if i throw them into the garbage box,and it is not like the computer that can be recycled,they are gone without any trace,but now i live with tom who has little stuff carry from new york,he is unhappy that the house i rent is too small but no place for him to set a table to concentrate writing,i always say to him that he can write on my back or my bed,my place is a comfortable shelter,without me the master of this house he will be very boring,if he live alone somewhere,i will feel the heavy rent since he havent be a popular one in the literature base,so he start to use type machine,and sit out side my door and over there he create a pretty good novel,i know its about me and the love we shared together for i am his secret lover,we are not wide open about our fairs. one day when he finish the 5 charpter,he take me to musem of Louvre,we are siting shoulder to shoulder,and he talk very close to my ear,he use lips touch my ear,and sweapering some sweet words,we stick together in the main garden of Tuileries,where there is a branch near the lake,and he says he buy me a ring just get this prize from a writing race,he give it to me and put it on my finger,i am very happy so i kiss him,that is a beginning of warming sense i feel,i believe love must be connected together by something,like working, living, interesting, tasting, even the religion,and skin cilour,my love is pure,i need to be loved carefully,or i will fall down from my confidence,and tom gives me the arguement about love and i get to start a telling of myself to him,to make him describe me in the next novel,i try to stand in the middle of his writing,but he loves to write failure romance,so i got to practice a heart of merit spirit so that he wont hurt me when i reading his fiction. i work at home as a newsletter writer in curlture critics,that is a left wing news paper,i know they give me a column for i am now a good and mature journalist in frence,and i never write the wrong report,because i always call for asking the truth,this time i am a reporter about fashion market activity and the creation bring the energy of youth to do some design works,i like these career cause i have been working this at home for a period of time,and i feel it can heal people's mind,it also need some training and practice with a child's heart,just to make some produce like soho made,i know there is one book i get and it describe about the handy sawing and produce in the flea market,i guess i have a lot of words to explain for the readers who love the culture of such one man company. after all i still go back to my life career which is a professional journalist,and i have to hand out some report that radio or newspaper need,i get a thought that i am a media trainer which is longing to be famous but not success,thats why i keep on thinkking other ways to become a business woman,but all these stuff make me a experience of fashion worker but losing my own justice to reveal more misery in this world ,this society is full of tragedy and no saver want to take any responsibility for it,i feel pity for it so i stand up and report it,for i cant pretent that i dont see,and that is my duty to make people know taht we have to exame all the event after we report it,the afterward is the most important thing to solve,with all knowledged people in the front stage, i believe that we can face all the events by a conscious heart and a helping hand,to make those who suffer into a merit one. i feel the justice duty of reporting the truth,so i create an underground news paper,its abbreviation is ccw,means culture critic weekly,and i contribute so many energy and concentration ino this paper,by useing the money applied from the government,i due make a example of new age people,and they like to read this news with some sort of scholar disconstructure point of view,and i receive all direction of copy manuscript,then i start to pull in fancy colour like trans-reality edition style,i like to combine all dementional opinion and the frane work,just to make a notorious critic system no one ever reach,i am a advicer of this news,at the same time,i have a id of Los Angeles news,i report france news by faxing to the station of the news editor,they will exame the draft and take the best text to use in the board,i like to report the literature news because i am a good writer after i get to this country,and i love to use a kind of saying narrative way to describe the situation in here i stay for 2 years long,i soon learn how to speach and write french and i like the path people live,very soon i become a alien in here but no body detach me,so i feel very warm and free,at least i find where i belong,and my boyfriend loves me what ever i do he agree with me,support me and help me,i feel so very content,so as he doing in his writing life,i buy a small table for him so he can put his digit notebook on the table,and write down all details about us. at secret times,me and tom stick together like kissing fishes,we tell every funny stuff and share each and every day within the heart on fire,we hold on the words so tight that no one can hear and the wisper is like a night bird murmuring,only we know the secret code,i like to praise his loveing,and he put it on the texture like experiment,i know he record me as a model,the story is second importance,i kow how to enter the tale with him,i play the role with him,talk like the main role do,the story make me exciting and escatacy,and we make story every day like we are a drama writer and we play by our own,i really play the mother who shopping a lot, ith his leading to the department shop and mall,i pretend that i have a 12 years old daughter and i control her estate when she grow up,tom play the father who never exist but often call on the phone to his wife,and talk about the fee he need to give her for living,on the phone he tell me that i am such a money sucker that he can not help controling this deal,he hope that me is the rational woman who can count on self ability and create whatever career me want,so that he can help me to establish the career for me,then i dont have to rely on him so much,so i tell him that i want to build a chain shop of book store,which is named eagle book shop,i am eager to sell all good books which can open reader's mind,and i want to sell all works like famous writer all over the world,especially those who get award,the story stop here,he is thinking about how the story goes is better,since the man is a big boss of financial system,he got a lot of fund and if he agree she can use it to help poor people and make effert to support them to study in community school,i like the way we make dialogues,and it like we are the performance act under the light,we have a bright mind always think of the hearty cherity we want to practice. one day i go to the jail of bastille,to find out something about wilde the writer,and care about the living those people are spending,i know they count days and dream on that some day they can go back to the society,and relative are waiting for them,i interview with one man named jo base,he tell me the jail ever been destroyed by revolution of the queen mary epoch,they run out of the jail,and no any guard can stop them,even so they still can smell the air of freedom,so they keep waiting one day to return the identity of free,it is good to pray every day,cause they can do nothing but working in the training room,sleep and eat,talk is seldom can be done,so they take subsconcious to be a mean of talking,i feel very sorry that i never understand that people without freedom can be so numb,and they have a wanting to get out thus place,but days are long,10 years,and more,they are so afraid that they will die in the bed of the room,jail is a place to kill time,but you cant sense the limit of time,everyday boring,so he find a way to remember in order to let the pass time go by his room,and filled with love and joy,he tell me he is happy and he deserve the crime of stealing the money of bank,he want to confess. i log on the horoscope page,and one lady helpful to read all taro for me,with one letter after another,after all i answer her,that my real problem is not miracle or good lick not come,but my mother stop me from regain happy life,i live with them once in new york,now they want to find me in paris and relay on me,i know my mother ia glad that my weight is haveier than her,and my book are not printed well and late for two months,and my xuite havent rented yet,i want to join the monavie drink group but my mother stop me to earn that kind of money,and when i spend my 40 years old birthday alone,she add my age as 42,and say that my sister is more pretty than me,she want to destroy my confidentence,and ever since i tell all troble to the miss G she stop giving me any letter,i dont know why,and i am sure these things wont get solved if no body pray for me,and i do not pray for meself cause it is a suffering that i cant get any wish,but chanting is so beautiful that i think i should get some improvement on the hope,but the fact is not this way,i am so worried but not show on my out look,i think if miss G can help me i wiil pay her some money,but now i have no any penny at all, so i can just sit and wait. i give an enroll money to monavie drink group,800 dollars and get to jion a party of cooperation in trade center,and i also get a chance to have a marrage with tom with a honey moon in swiss,cause i get a black diamond on the raiseing of many customers,at first i was appealed by the Brazil acai bluebarry,and then the film i watch from pc is so powerful to convinvce me,suddenly i tell the preacher that i am in,and i and tom have many fans to support us,and i thanks to the miss G who teach me how to praise and earn luck,therefore i get a lot of money from this career,it is a side work for me,i still doing my job as a journalist all over the earth i heard my mother says that in swiss no one need to work for money,theie country has a very stable insurance system to insure that the people have a life time to study and work and enjoy,but a lot od people get blue cause they have no motive to make money,life is so boring,even they got higher education,but without a goal to get the practical money life is meaningless,so most of them choose to commite sucide,i get to the church in the capital and watch the street so shining,i make a report at that chrismas time,i think swiss as a first bank in the world,they should think about how poor country and make some donation to them,but this report get the government angry,they dont believe in making cherity in the third country,and threrfore i become unwelcome list over there,so me and tom have to go home earily before the new year comes,i still very happy cause he agree with me. during the honey moon,we have a wonderful time except the cold weather,after we go back to paris my mother heard of one sutra to chant,and that is nam myoho renge kyo,so many people sing it on the youtube and i like to watch it,but learning to chant it is not easy,i also see the famous singer tina turna chant it on the web vedio,so i am inspired and decide to chant it from the english version with my mother,we are not having big trouble but for a kind of belief we want to chant the sutra of lotus,i think it is good for me to face the dangerous situation of being a journalist,since i have to report with collecting infomations from any possiblity,i like to pray before i write,that help me not to make mistake and concentrate more,i know tom dont believe in buddhaism,so i always chant in the earily morning snd late at night,he cant zomplain about me and the sutra,and i pray for my every wish come true,including establish an english bookstore in paris,and being aloowed to stand up from, the failure of my writing freelance guide book,it sell not very good,and the reader sre all the same job as me,i can see it wont help if i am not so professional in the journalist faith,so i decide to write a second handy book. i pray for buddha give me a son,then i am pragenent and till the baby is born,i suffer the difficult but happy,i think this is the eanding,so every body take care of your love. the end after this story ends,i have something to say,that is love is not at the first sight, some always falling in the ocean of love and drifting to nowhere,as i write the first charpter,i was fantisize by handsome men,and they are out of my romance, cause i just love them the brain and face,after i meet eric it change my life,he teach me what is love,so i think over it about who is my true love,finally i choose tom as my partner,and its good love cause we have a baby,this story is trying to talk about the understanding of love,and the great heart is the top high in buddhism theory,that is nine heart,which stay in our capital of knowledge,and the golden book means the kingkong sutra which strenthen the mind and body,that is the most important of all heart in the lotus sutra,i remind you readers to compare what is true love in romance.still love need protection and comferting recall,and that will be a matafer when both of lovers can keep the same heart in belief,and that is comeapart. I AS THE WRITER HEARD A KIND OF CELLPHONE IS COMING UP,THE BRAND IS LG LOTUS ELITE,I DEFINITELY WANT TO BUY IT,SO I GO TO THE MY PHONE SHOP TO BOOK ONE BY IMPORT,AND I AM HAPPY THAT I GET IT AND I USE IT TO EXPRESS MY RELIGIOUS FAITH AND BELIEF,"EDGY AND BOLD" IS THE SLOGAN,IT CAN TOUCH WITH THE FACEBOOK,AND IF THERE IS STILL SOME PEOPLE WANT TO HEAR FROM THIS NOVEL CONTINUEING ON,I WILL SURE PICK UP MY PEN AND LET THIS STORY GOING ON AND ON AND ON. worshiping(a novel) he is a puppet of sanscript,the renasiance of his life has gone,he graduated from university of wisdom,although he has been so sucess for a period of time,but he got some info about criticizing politics,it made him become a no future loser,try to make money in the house,just use a computer to do network sale business,he create buddha misic for a while but not so good,study architecture but just not understand,after that he get cancer,which he take it as a beautiful karma. he try to serch for help,but all he know is the freedom of buddhism,he write it down as below:zen is totaly heart and soul kindness,when we see the tv news report those miserable accidents,we ask ourselves if we are just lucky or laugh at it,such kind of mind is only happening by a glace of time,zen is timeless asking for knowledge,we just live everyday to a tendency of kind root of buddhism,and it will never be cut down,also the kindness of a person is made by stock,and it is possibly come from the self nature,to born as a prson is very lucky,we can try to achieve buddhism by training it. since i heard the importance of common sense buddhism in this society,i got a feeling that i really open my wisadom,this kind of happiness seems like reading the method and understand,i knee down in front of the buddha to confess,and i am saved. when i was 20 years old before,i made a wish that i want to learn the zazen,but i use the ego understanding of myself to explain by pen and writing,never knoww which is right and what is wrong,i do everything all by myself,but my soul is murmuring,fly between the dream and reality,the yin and yong twist on me,it made me become a shining face while practically a believer of self preaching,untill now i get a ugly face,and i dare not to describe detals about the content of zen,i can only read the name with a never surrender heart,try to mantain forgiveness from my mistake i made ever before. sometimes i will encourage myself to leave the paranoid kind of heart,use a kind mind to see this society,or the whole world.i usually get up early and read sutra,and open the buddhism tv show to spend the first time of a day,then i open the computer working at home,writing smething like buddhism articles,i busy all around my publish sdudio,or read those promoying books.the air in the morning is especilly fresh,itr makes me get beter spirit,and healthy body. because the free growing of buddhism inside our heart,we seldom wipe away the dust and it become shuflein,so i understand that i should work hard on the study,and self-concidering,for example,,if we wont try hard on the road of fixation buddhism,or we wont concentrate on it,we will lose the good looking of our face,this is so -called the falling of selfness.we should keep the clean mind with whole heart,and then we will get simple belief,and the fortune will come without asking or worshiping,such as getting a treasure ball without pray,and hold it on the hand.the fixation of buddhism can never be too suspecious,he must behave as the law,and stop the 10 badness,do as a pipul of buddha overwhalmingly, never doing wrong to betray his wish.respect the three treasures of buddhism, they are buhhda,law,and monk,it is a basic attitude,if we do it we will get special fortune. the fame and adventage is all my past,no one care about me now,i sitting slone in front of the pc and take soho case,at least i can survive,with some saving money on my account,i can live all by myself without other's help,but lonely makes me tell the difficulty and secret to the buddha,and spend each and every day.we can only get belief and then the place of living safety will come to you,zen teach us that people have no different or level,thsy all have the root of buddhism,whether we can enspired is depend on our one mind,we cant serch from outside so we looking forward to the self to get the answer.all kind of religion is doing good for people,they teach people to take the dharma into the body and soul,to become a good person of doing what he says. the fame and adventage is all my past,no one care about me now,i sitting slone in front of the pc and take soho case,at least i can survive,with some saving money on my account,i can live all by myself without other's help,but lonely makes me tell the difficulty and secret to the buddha,and spend each and every day.we can only get belief and then the place of living safety will come to you,zen teach us that people have no different or level,thsy all have the root of buddhism,whether we can enspired is depend on our one mind,we cant serch from outside so we looking forward to the self to get the answer.all kind of religion is doing good for people,they teach people to take the dharma into the body and soul,to become a good person of doing what he says. the freedom of buddhism is fellow equality,never tell rich from poor,people follow the buddha then they can find the meaning of life,enter the sphere of the lonely only one fixation,and express the seeds and fire of buddhism in the 12 kind of effects.learning buddhism is a never ending schalorship,we cant pretend to know it,therefore slow down the smart mind and stop practicing,if we get the freedom of buddhism in standard,we can live and breathe with the whole world. because he cant make a lot of money,so he take a night shift to be a private tutor,read the textbook everyday,write down lectures,and the main point on the professional books,he is totally in to this job,each time he teach,he can get a few thousand dollars.in his mind every students are all seeds,they will express the seed of becoming smart tree of wisdom,he adapt concern and realize to educate them,make them in the future the best successful person with endless potencial.as he goes to the house of different students,due to his belief in buddhism,sometimes he will tell something about the thoughts of buddhism,and open the door for them the lighting and shining intellecture blow out. he ever learn the class of photoshop,so he receive some case of ad design,for the transfer of adobe in chinese is different,he can only use english version,add with the effect and function of flash,he fly into the time and space in the network,so many creational insperation bomb out,and he get the hired job very smoothly,so the boss bill him the money.although he never dress like a monk,but he is becoming a kind buddhasattiva in this society,some times he help people who are weak and suffer,he does good deeds.he try every interest for example, make bread by machine,make icecream for student,cook by the procedure of cook book,he will eat all no matter they like it or not. since he want to learn sanskipt this language,his mind just wont follow himself,it is like a kind of some talking in the head,this trobles him,but even so he still love such a mysterious language,because its opigionality,he can get to know the true meaning and verture about the classic sutra in detail,such as the king of medicine surea,the sutra of king kon,the heart sutra,the sutra of amit buddha,and the rest of all sayings of the holy buddha shakamuni,without any leading and teaching,he understand those words by his own realization,and it result him as a puppet of sanscript,just like the wonderful monk who interpritw many sutras,he cant get away of reading sutra everyday,and busy between job and belief. worshiping(a novel) he has a girlfriend who recently goes to blind date with those who ask to share a cup of coffee,and she interview with them just to sent her books with signiture,and chat about their love experience.she type a rule,to give those who are ganna become her fans a notice that she is no easy to date with people who has no any idealism,and she also encourage them to persuit true love,this condition make men crazy,they would not like to pay for a cup of coffee for her,some says thanks but not really wanna go to date with her,he listen to her confess and think it is stupid for her to kill time,and only people without job will go to her date starbuck. his cancer is happened in the throat,he has told his girlfriend but she wont worry about it,actrually she want to find some other whoever have a villa and rich than him,it is only a dream but she really goes to those dating party to find a lover and bride which makes him very sad,so he decide to go around some activities in the cultural express,to left the lonely and hurting away from this moment,and also he need to change a job,he always love diversity of jobs and try to make any fresh interest in his experience,he is a player of life,but with a belief of buddhism he is not influenced by any critized words,or take the despise of others,he live an attitude of handsome,he find a free way to forget illness and pain,just try to spend the rest of the happy days in the 40 age,he is not afriad of dieing in the air. he buys a tida car,touring in the city,at the same time he carry self-made cookies,he put them in the backery store for sale,no matter far or near he will drive from mountain to the sae,only if there are booking or telephone reservation,not only so, his network auction business start once again,and he is no longer the room boy others used to judge him,he used to daring the cusin in the net but starving all the time,he is too lazy to go out the door and buy some meal,now everything has changed,he already ahelf boss,and a helf salesman. one day he pass by a book store and saw the cooking book advertisement,he enter the pages and decide to buy one without regret,he plan to study the vagetarian cook dishes for himself,so to reduce the risk of cancer.he used to be a business son take over his father's property left to him since his father is dead,because the goverment sue him trobles him.so he give up the power of heritage,now he cant depend his father's power,therefore he kneel down to make a living without any buget,as he has no any partner to help him,he still fight with his own fate,wont be knock down by the reality. he depend on the nobody website manage the salesment program of all goods,ask every backery store and their workers,about the most popular food,and then he only sell the pie desert,for his deep study on the making tips,he successfully be blessed by many weman group,almost sale all out,untill the night shift it is out of source.so he take his all saving money and set one bread factory,and swll the fresh goods in the chain store of drink,or call-out sending. he need a lot of fresh butter,and must be combined with the flavor of pie,he collect some from the shopping mall which are import by european businessman,at last he pick out the blue star brand,buy a big package of it,and keep the pie producing never lack.his choklete mint pie is better saled than tilamiso cake,the big market get a pretty wondeful luck,since ever he is not satisfized,and develope all kinds of fruit pie,and he gose far to the other country to serch for the right flavor of cream,espially the thousands folding pie,become the second billborad site,he is more than happy,so for no longer wait ,he made ice cream cookies climb into good sale result,for the tenderness and cripy texture,evry age people like it a lot. at that successful time,he told her that stop missing him,he is rude to her love,and refuse to give,ao after he manage a backery,she never give a damn to him and his career,she does not want to save his illness though he has told her his situation,he think even her knows wont help any better,just say goodbye to each other,even though they both know what they are doing and secret after seperation,she want a man with deep thought and big family,now he is no longer fit this appeal,so he just keep her safety with wishing heart,wish her find a better man,receive a dimond ring that never be break,and finally get a respecting home and standard as normal weman hope,and he will be very happy to gone in dust. he is nerveous about if the trouble of family property will come back again,so he plan to change a name,and dress like an old man,nobody will know how he suffer to be success once again,by his own effert he goes to the highest cooking class,and learn many tips of make fresh new brand of bread or cake,he know that some power may try to kill him or make him leave his mother country,so he write diary of his fake life,and for sure he can escape from those fighting undergo. he find a shelter in church,where he listen about how to make a family worshping,but he is the only one left in his family,all by himself,he swear to become a poet of love,in this project he try to study and read a lot poetry books,theory and poem album,from that time on,he is a passionate soul in front of god,he pray every day and night,pray often makes him feel wellcome in the world of evil,he make friends with every one,and this is where he feel safe and peace,so many goodhearted person come to ask him if he live a good life,it is so warm and sweet,he practice to pray from learning the preach guide,and content. he has an attitude on poetry writing,that appears in his theory about creation,if poem does not include the fighting will on this society,then it is like waste garbage,can not make responsibility on its function.espatially when he forget the point mainly occur in the standard of a reality faith,that is to judge right from wrong,and criticizein each poem with style of realism,if not,he must be going crazy by the curse of muse,which is his sourse of insperation. when he driving and carry goods on the road,he often pass some beggers by,they stay or lying on the street which makes he feel sad,so he give one half ten food to them,for their starving and thirsty,this is a tale which is told by an old man from bible,after he read the sentece,he learn how to give.as he observ from those beggers,he find out that the poors are retired from labors and disables,or some criminals from jail,so he make a wish to take care of them,so most of them are taken to the job training place,and good living care,because his good doing his extra girlfriend come back to him,and trying to find out the reason of the evil. since he did charity to those beggers,he get cured about throat cancer,it just disappeared from the neck,so he keep the faith to be kind to the disables,his girlfriend believe in christrain,she always tell the saint sentance to him.she join a big meeting of lectures,the magic is that her mind stay purely and without evil thought,which is her fault to influence his mind,she wish to be with him,then they get married in a church where outside is dark while inside is white light. he does a little pray,for going to the community library to sarch bread recipe,and as he pray he sit beside his girlfriend,he ask if she want to take a while quietness,she says why not,as she tell him this answer,her eyes are watching at a beautiful youth,her long hair and leg make her jealous,but he thought that his girlfriend is a little tendecy of lesbin favor,gash,what a jok of such kind of guess,girls always compare to each other,and their eyes are turning red as their boy are being noticed,thats why she looks at her like badly daring,so he tell her its time to go,then they go out like a snake's leading,through the dark road near the church,and reach the public place where some people read,study or write. he felt like so frustrate because one insurance salesman call him,tell him that it is too late to pay for cancer,they must make deal before he been found ill in the clinic, but he try to skip the report,use the very lasting time doing what he wishes to waste time on,contributing in the field he want to challenge,that limit time push him to get soon success come to him,but now he hide the ill from girlfriend,and sign a contract of death and under her name,that even his family dont know it at all.after he listen to some disk lecture,which courage him to look to a better way,he never feel sad or regrate cause now he is all let go his pain and trouble,he find a silent empty place,under the tree he close his eyes and pray for a awakening moment to show,that's his only hope,to be a translater of sanscript for temple,so he find a teacher of foreigner,who teach him how to be convience on this language,finally he live more five years for this wish come true to bring him long life,and even stay away all the inner pain and tireness,he become a puppet. he become weak and fragil,once he get any pressure,he will be crush down,so he serch from the website and find famous master omaga,his book teaches how to fix the photo better,so he learn to be a good adver in his bakery business,and his girlfriend take care of him all the time,because she learn some handy made goods,so that they can stay in the workshop for long,it is called love the happiness in disfaction,at least he can enjoy the travel of creation in the mind,and she is his best company,anyway untill the day he have to be rescued by hospital,he choose not to put tube in the nose and gone,this is his last will he told her and family. he dreamed about he was kissing with one girl who he know in collage time,but he wake up with a piece of wonder,he was being fooled by the lip when she turn away her face,he ask her why she stop that action,she just answer that she want to be kissed by him but not kiss him actively,but the short beard really give her satisfaction, as she has ever guessed before,that kind of mankind mature and connection makes she very happy,so she say to him "thank you",and maybe she will show up soon beside him one day,he never experience such romance,now he start to know that love is to do what you say and promice to the other. then he is told he have to go through a sergery on throat,take the cancer tumer out of the body,it shows that this illness is good effect,so he make a apply to live in the hospital and receive a cure,his girlfriend bring his favorate food and the promise of being together,but the new lover never come,so he forget about her kiss,cause when he is in trobule she cant be his companionship,he feel the cheating in love and soon figur out that she is not his true love,then he make a will about how he left things to all his friend and family,also including his best girlfriend. the sergury is to cut from the place under the lips,and it is a lot of pain to bear,he does not die but the cancer will transfer into other portion of the body,after one year he is announced that he get a lung cancer,it is a bitter news for him,sometimes he just want to die straightly while the pain is moving on his body,he eat a lot of pills to stop the pain and drink special milk to keep the cancer slow down,he make a wish that if buddha let him safe survive,he will contribute all the business to poors. he always stay at night to catch his little time doing some ideals he is searching for,fighting for chance of life.while the pill is experience,he almost cant afford it,instead of eating pills,electronic cure and special care,he persuite the religion way to ease the pain and worry,he come out of hatred in mind,and send many virus to others computer,indeed he dont wish his girlfriend die with him,but one day meet each other in the paridise where the bible writtenabout people and animals peacefully living together,this future he has seen from the picture on msn,so he simply believe that legend,and he comfert himselve that maybe he is the chosen one to get into the paradise,with such belief he survive for 15 months. after he died,his relatives put his picture on the buddha room,and beg for more from his spirit on heaven,he is very angry and his forehead is hurt in the picture for a long time,he finally gone without any care and no any property,but the only one who knows him is his girlfriend,she burns many image things such as cell, car, house, shoes, dress,money,ect,then he become a ghost waiting for next life,and then a monk hear his calling,he soon sent his soul and body born in western country and a family is truely happy to see his cute natality,his life is restart once again.(end) call the name of fashion(a novel) my name is fashion, it is a nickname i use in the chatroom, i like to say "call my name", because i am fashion, the world goes around with me, turn around with me, especially when i take a look at the "street "magazine in london, i see the hardcore black dress from head to toe,this is their fashion, such as long tight jean or silk sock, boots, bag, cosmestic on face, coat, hair, highheel, i believe that it is a kind of protecting color, and it's cool, and humble structure of layers. i would like to learn from them, and cause london is a winter country, they often wear think, so i am going to prepare some like the same pieces in this winter. i think it may be called chacolete fashion, cause they are favirite on black, and i try for a winter, next winter, and i feel alright, low-profile luxury like, i feel myself being a no color bird, walking on the street nobody will look at me one moment, thats what i want, and just for my privicy regard, i insist that black is good for underwears, really, i do, i buy a lot of black pant, and they are good to wear, at least they cover my big buddy, and i like the feeling when i wear them, it is like transparent. there is a show on tlc, it is about how fashion office working out, the relationship is quite intense, and they are all busy at working, but the boss is very piky and nervous about the quality, i dont know why they strive their souls to work for fashion, it is just like actors on the street, showing fashion in front of the camera, then soon made an elbum of their photographs, everybody looks the same, i know i talk so childish, but its true, work for fashion is to earn money from clothing industry, it is a labor kind of job, i mean it is a meanful work, fashion should not pull into life this way. pushing fashion is not natural, when you buy a dress without the permission of credit card, it is not called fashion, that means you are not allowed to buy this dress, before you pick the colth, you should think over your own style, then you are the right fashion, eating is the same theory too, if you eat something makes you fat, it is not fashion, no matter how delicious or high professional the food is, you do your own way, that is real fashion, dont judge fashion as to expensive or high-profile. one day i go to the pc office, i wear too tom-boy like fashion, rather than the feminine style i used to wear before, so i get kicking out of the company, but unfortunately i heard them falling down the day after i leave the pc company, i think i am a lucky star, but i wear that kind of dress because i left my boy friend so my motion is showing on my wearing, i didnt tell anybody, i just feeling better, after i watch the "lucky kiss", i realize that nobody is definately lucky, the frase says"in fashion world, one day u are in, the next day u are out", so why not just let go. i remember in the fairy tale sinderalla is so upset, cause she has no any dress to wear to attain the big party, so there goes the pretty dress by the celestial bar, that light up her life, i think fashion should not be weared in the house, but in the public, or it will be tored down or get dirty by eating or homeworking, a woman dress for her husband is good but not too over it, for the husband will be up side down the heart in the house, not dare to talk too loud to the queen in his side, i mean it is too official to wear prety in the house, it is not comfortable, agree? some young girls are hunchbacked, and they dont want to let boys see their growing up , so they hide the bosem, then after long time they become a old lady gesture, i think some might be wearing the sturture frame of straight up the back, it is so poor, i used to be one of them, but as i grow up to 20 i sleep by face down, so i get cured each day i sleep, it is so magic, must be blessed by buddha, i regain the confidence of a little lady, and i like the way every time to wear my bra, and some how i love myself more than love others, it is a selfish attitude i know, but after i grow more older i find out that bra is not the only thing inportant in men's world,they want a kind of glamour from female, but not too sexy kind, for sure, i believe it. until now i still love gold color than black, i love Lucy's jewlry, crystal, and gold watch, it is a taiwan production, but never lose any partial of the whole deraction, and the deco is very seriously made, i buy a big crystal heart look like R&B star, which makes me prode and happy, i wear this accesory to a wedding, and i feels so great and febrilous, when i am on the picture, i seem to get a palace like atmosphere on me, dont say i am too strong, i just want to make the best of me shown on the public. the heart is a necklet, i buy to cure my broken heart, in a strange situation i fall in love with a famous person, he teach me be careful when u choose the one you love, and i get a lesson on that, he tell people to sleep with anemy by hayred, but i dont agree, on that point i lose control in a nightmare with several troubles, such as tumor on my belly and headach oftenly, i understand that fashion should be all ladys' first love, the next is romance, suddenly i get to find a job of net working, from a friend on high school, she teach me to help myself get out of wonder love. i met a nevy in a holiday club, which had proposed to me a marriage, but i was afraid so i reject him, it is a stupid decision, but he will never stay home long, and will go on his ocean mission for a period of time often, i cant stand the loneliness so i try to find some one else, and become a mean lady who leave man alone for all times, i drink at the pub, change friend by sex, i live a miserable life but it kill my lonely time, i am so empty that i become a little fat for two years, i hate that. 101 is a year of losing pounds, i join fasobook on the internet, writing eating food diary everyday, and the coach will help me judge the right and wrong food to eat, for helf a year untill august i lose 5 kilograms, hence i am so happy and cant wait to tell people around me who are fat, i like to share with pwople good curing method, sometimes i eat pills to fight the constapations every day, i just need to reduce 7 kilograms to fit my ideal body shape, i will try all my effort to make it. i like to surf on the omg! on usa yahoo web site, it concludes celebrity news and their dress criticize, or photos of fashion in hollywood, and i watch that 45 channel will play a fashion episode called "jane in design", it is about fashion design effort, and its trailer seems beautiful to watch, every time it shines i just cant wait untill sateraturday night 9:00, i think it is a great chance to get into knowing what fashion is going on. ladygaga sing a new song called"fashion", it is not bad, all those brands are not so famous but expensive and content with idea, i am a person who like to talk about fashion, it is sounds like talking about me, it makes me proud, and also the name is fabulous so i love to take all stuff of fashion on my body, i usually like pick female brand which is middle class dress, i prefer to use celebraty create perfum, it adds some sort of high class fashion look when i need confidence walking on the road. today i watch a china movie on funshion channel, it is called "believe in love", a lady model falling in love with a wedding dress designer, the content is all about fashion creating, and the wedding dress brand is named "love", i think the style of this movie is interesting, and full of summer romance, in model's life, the most important one is her manager, she controls her work and emotion, and push the model to choose her true love, this is a good sign, we know that all gassip is fake, so audience will never believe in magazine but love near them. i try to dress like fashion movie, but got in no way, i have few dress that are new type in this season, so i go to yahoo kiwi fruit website to buy cheap but pretty dress, first they call the price 236 dollars for a coat, but later on they told me by a email that they only have a slim size, so probably not suiteful for me, i feel so depressed, but my sister swear to me if i loose pound for 10 kilograms, she will send me one piece of good dress, which is high quality and high price, i have been wasting all my time exercing and not to eat too much, i become a little slim for lose 4 or 5 kilos, but soon the weight comes back again, i was so upset, i even took bythree pants to get changed for my size, it cost 400 dollars and more, such a bad luck! i found out that all the most fashionable matters are put into computer science editing, so i go to a pc school pay the bill and learn from the very begining, i learn software of inDesign, photoshop and illustrator, and i try to edit ebook for a poet, whose opinion is similar to me, i want to make a ebook for him to celebrate the same idea and share to other people in the internet, i find it is more than fashion can be, because poem is always a fashion, if you filled with love, it will sing for your dream. dear rose(a novel)by pollywoo my love dear rose, i have devoted all my love to you, now i have to gone, i spend a wonderful life with you, please dont cry, i will dry your tears, write me letters, i will receive all messages from you. that winter you come to see me in school, i was overhappy but we miss the chance of fallong in love, just stay in the memory of fever, my body and soul chase you all the way you go, still i did not reach out the reality that you want to bring to me. when we were both young, we are university friends, join the reading group activity, from that time on, i start to talk a little to you, some secret talking between us that i can still remember now. i know the name rose in buddha sutra, is meaning the feeling of confession and regret, that is how i feel about now, i played your emotion and i cheat on you about love, indeed i am wanting to be your soulmate but now a boyfriend, i insist that single and spend a lonely life after 20 years later. i dont want to ruin your fame, you become famous from a very early time, that i cant be conpared with your ability, but now i try hard to stand higher than you, and i success, i even rob your dream job, that is teaching in the university, as a asist proffer, my life is rich becaiuse of you, but now i have to keep the secret.hind the secret from the public, for some private reason, i need you to know what i am suffering, status pressure, finacial promles, and the dignity and power in school, i dont want past romance to destroy my life, and my career, please forgive my selfish deed on you. life is a river like you want to flow to me now but i push you away, sorry my love, i can only deal with illustionary dream but not your affection, for now i am mature and free, i never want a partner who cant give a baby to me, i need the birth of motherhood to let me be a father, i listen to you buy the whole lottery and win the prize money, but i did not share with you, sorry my love. since you know, i am a divorced man, i look for one more romance, therefore i found you, as you remember i was divorced by you, when we were young, i buy a cateye stone ring of dark blu color for you, you wear it untill the monk get jealous, so you cut it in the silver building shop because your finger get fat cant pull it off, now we love again but still i have the burdan that my parents dont take you, so i hide you in my dream, everyday we date after i go home, i like to hug you in the back, i am hoter than you, i am so prode of this temperture. i rush you to find any cateye stone in your treasure box, you find a ring of grey color, that looks like a cat of grey fur in american, which is very huge and timid, someone on the net want to sale or sent it to youu, but you cant feed it fully, so you turn down the proposal, i love the story, and i told you all the most expensive cateye stone are bought to sent you, because you love such kind of stone, i am glsd that you still hold it in your hand, and waer it in the middle finger, i wish you love the memory between us and forget about the dark blue one! i dream about you tonight, your mouth fell out a piece of meat chicken, to the hell dark that makes me shock. now we are both single and share relationship in the middle space, just pretending that we are getting married forever, cause we both want to keep single for a lifetime, i have moved to a bigger house and i dream about i mail my sddress and key to you, hope you come to me and make love with me during holidays, through friday to sunday, and in the monday morning you may live in my place, waiting for me to come back at evening, when school class is over, we can exhabit together, but i just think about this idea to come true. while i eat meat before i go to sleep, i dream about you come to my door with a gift of chocolate in a love shape box, i know you already forgive me, and take me as your only man,as endless love in your romance life, no more phanten love but real sex, i say thousands times that i love you to your ear in the dream, and you like such swear, we stick together. have no distance, and you like to cook for me, we go shopping all the time, almost shopping for food, gradiance and books, your favorite is cook books, but i love theory most. we talk about gold saving on the car, i say it is not worth investing, but you want to buy, afterall you give up the low price in the market, and we become a saving money couple in reality, that is a long dream story, my dear rose, you dream about me going to be a future politian last night, and i let my hair remain long and tie it on the back head, i do it for you, because my father want me to be the same role as my brother did, i left you once again, your dream is wired, you say u will wait for me, but you apply the green card lottery activity and pay 500 euro just to escape from me and white horror, but u didnt win the lottery finally, that is such a nightmare, i swear that i will never touch politics, i cant have success without you. when i sit at my office, you come to me again and kiss me, i slap your face and that is why my privacy is open to my workmate, and you are so mad of me, so you go home and sent a message of love song named "goodbye my lover", i let you cool down for a week, you know i buy a whole furneture of dark blue in the living room for you, hope u forgive me once again, but you never give any phone call message any more. i give you a long tongue kiss, and you kiss back but bit it one time, i dont care, just blam on you about how i teach to my syudents any more if it is cut down by you, then you kiss me on the top of my tongue, and say that is the way u like most, i get your email return once again, that is a letter i use nickname to sell doctor sox, you say thanks and get it, i am so happy that you agree with me. after another week, i cant fall asleep, so i go to your blog and left a message that i am so bothered by sonea, you tell me in return that just close eyes and dont move after no thinking anything by 20 minutes that i will sleep well, that is so sweet. you ask me if am the one who cut down in the notebook one line of two sentences in front and back, i say yes, i am so glad you remid of me secretly doing this, because you write two sorrow words, that i cant not aprove, one says you will possiblely not be able to love anyone, cause you are ment to be alone, another one says you want to travel and wander around, i think you dont know that i like you from the first sight, and you dont want to search for the cutter, that means you dont mind, i intented to see you in the university group activitys, and you watch me like you want me to say something comment, but sight move away from you. i still one love poem from your blog once again, i tell you that i am a smart hiker, a bad man ,i want to keep every poem you wrote to me, especially about our history i kiss you a voice if juice on your lips,so you forget the anger on me, that is a stealing for a long more roadf,you read my fate and know that i dont have marrige untill 65-75 years old, our secret love is like sea flower, high and low,joice and love flaping beneath the soul. you love to go adventure when we were young, after all we have been so long a time memorize each other, and the key words of love talking going on now, you know i always write down your special words and sentence 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